What Happens When You Die?

It was getting worse.

I’ve started to hear his voice.

He tells me that he loves me.

That he’s always loved me.

I hear him but Ray does not.

My mind doesn’t listen to me.

I know it’s not really him.

I want to make it stop.

Why is he doing this to me?

Did he kill himself just to drive me so deep into insanity that I can never get better?

“All you ever do is lie, Frank. Can’t you once in your miserable life actually tell the truth?”

He said to me.

I don’t remember why he said it but it’s always stuck with me, nagging at the back of my slowly decaying mind.

Have I ever told the truth?

Or was I always lying?

If I was always lying did I lie when I told him I loved him?

No.

I did love him.

I’ve always loved him.

I’ve never stopped.

And I never will.

I think the real question is… did he love me.

My mother said,

“If he truly loved you he would have never left you.”

But… what if he never really left me.

And that’s when I decided.

I knew what I had to do.

And I was going to do it.

What happens when you die?