Gem 'n i

"I'm sick and tired of being tired
Can't pick a side, the Gemini
Prophesize if we live or not...
Stuck inside the belly of the beast
Can you please pray for me?
...
Get God on the phone!
Said it won't be long...where did we go wrong?"
untitled 02 | 06.23.2014 by Kendrick Lamar

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“You are never going to leave me, are you?”

She said nothing. I didn't expect her too. The question was rhetorical, but my desperation was growing, consuming me from the inside out.

We sat in silence. She had been with me since I could remember. We were inseparable from the start, almost as if we were shadows of one another. In the beginning, it was good, but as we grew, it was in different directions. At first the differences seemed small; I thought I was strong enough not to let her sway me. Now, I realized her true character and I could no longer be a part of it.

“You don't ever have to worry Meg,” she stated, disrupting my string of thoughts. She smirked at me knowingly, the devilish glint that had taken refuge in her eyes shining with the familiar red glow. “I will always be around.”

My desperation transformed into something I had never experienced before. Helplessness.

My throat swelled, closing up, forbidding the release of an involuntary sob that searched to find its way out. The only sign of my weakness could be seen in the single tear that fell down my cheek, containing all my unspoken pain and dropping to the ground only to vanish without a trace.

I wish I could do the same.