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baby_girl9892
Amateur Author
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 112 | July 25th, 2008 at 02:24am Ok so here, you can post the secrets that you have, not your family, but yourself. . . we're all here to help one another. . .
I'll go first. ..
 not really a secret. . . but kind of is. . . I cry at night. . . most times because the memories of my past haunt me. . . even tho it happened long ago, it still hurts. . . But I cry in my sleep. .. sometimes i even cry myself TO sleep. . . I have for years. . . I'm afraid that my. . . who ever did what they did, is just waiting for me. . . waiting for me to get older, so that way they.. . he can do it again. . . *shivers* your turns |
music_is_love
Amateur Author
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 101 | July 25th, 2008 at 10:50pm aww...i'm sorry. you can talk to me if it'll make you feel better. =)
um...a secret about me...hmm...
well, i used to take pills every day. LOTS of pills. not anything bad necessarily. just too many. like, if it was an otc med, and i was supposed to take one because it was really strong, i'd literally take three or four. and if it was two, i'd take four or five.
i don't really have a reason...except...well, i wanted to see how long i could do it. until it really fucked me up.
and...it did. but no one can tell. -sigh- they think i'm faking when i get so dizzy i fall over and almost pass out. and when my vision clouds over and i can't see anymore.
not that i'm complaining. I know i was idiotic. which is why i haven't taken any pills in almost two months now. not medicine, not drugs, not even Tylenol or Midol. (which really sucks sometimes).
i can't even tell my best friend about it...i don't want her to get mad at me i guess. but i had to tell someone, and this seemed like the place. |
feliz flea
Grammar Guru
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 6120 | July 27th, 2008 at 01:38am my secret is getting too attached
like .. my friends call me the ~whore of the group
I'm just what chris crocker calls "co-dependent"
I need someone all the time
and that's just something my friends just don't like understand. |
acid martyr
Amateur Author
Age: 13
Gender: Female
Posts: 260 | July 27th, 2008 at 02:45am Even though I tell everyone I'm fine and happy, inside I'm depressed, and have been for about half a year. So much ven to the point where I cannot feel if I'm hungry or not.
I'm afraid to tell anyone and try to get help, because I don't want to be rejected or frowned upon. No one would understand where I stand, not even my best friend. |
zero;
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 12
Gender: Female
Posts: 1384 | July 27th, 2008 at 11:25am I only pretend to love my father, because my mother wants me to.
Every hug and kiss brings a smile to her face.
Sometimes, that's all I ever want to do. |
Nae
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 2877 | July 27th, 2008 at 11:31am You wish... I wish... Doesn't make it so. |
Ianto Jones
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 2571 | July 27th, 2008 at 01:57pm None of my friends even know inside I'm Disgusting, depressed and extremely lonely.
I don't want anyone to worry so I don't say anything. It's not going to make anything better anyway. |
Charmless.
Grammar Guru
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 6421 | July 27th, 2008 at 10:53pm
Everyone sees me as being an airhead, what they don't know is that I watch and memorize everything they do, just so I can make characters.
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Neon.Panda
Writer's Block
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Posts: 86 | July 28th, 2008 at 09:11am Ianto Jones:None of my friends even know inside I'm Disgusting, depressed and extremely lonely.
I don't want anyone to worry so I don't say anything. It's not going to make anything better anyway.
I feel the same way as well. ]= I also just..need someone there all the time. I have these secrets I suppose that I can't really put into words. When I can spill out everything and put it into words, I realize: there's nobody there for me at all. I guess I just need somebody there for me and to love me. |
zero;
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 12
Gender: Female
Posts: 1384 | July 28th, 2008 at 09:24am People can say all they want about me.
But when I see them do it, it hurts. I can't breathe, or think.
I always say that I don't care what people think of me.
But the truth is, I do.
I'm so weak. |
feliz flea
Grammar Guru
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 6120 | July 28th, 2008 at 06:59pm My friends don't know that the reason I have trouble talking to them,
Is because my freshman year I was talking to one of my friends about some shit I was going through
And she just completely bitched at me about how I complain too much. |
Mr. Brightside.
Amateur Author
Age: 13
Gender: Female
Posts: 217 | July 29th, 2008 at 12:00am I'm an attention seeker. Need I say more? |
StolenSerenity
Writer's Block
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 98 | July 29th, 2008 at 01:58am Secrets, eh.... Here's a few of them.
~ I sometimes cry myself to sleep. When I cry, I cry about everything I have to cry about all at once.
~ I used to cut....and sometimes still do....I say I've been "clean" since August, but that's not true....It's actually only been like, 2 months....(luckily I haven't scarred, guess I didn't do it deep enough....)
~ Nobody knows how depressed I really am. I guess I'm good at acting, since they dont' notice I'm lying...or they just don't care.
~ I'm a very paranoid person. If I walk by someone, or I'm in the same room as a group of people, if they start laughing, I'll think it's about me, even if I know it's not true.
~ I lie all the time to people (I haven't lied on this secrets thing, don't worry) and nobody knows. I always get away with it.
~ I have way more secrets, but most of them are way to complicated to explain. |
dallas winston.
Amateur Author
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 239 | July 29th, 2008 at 04:22am No one gets my mind and why I do the things I do. I don't usually do them on purpose, it's almost like my mind is acting on it's on accord.
I get mad when people say that there is nothing wrong with me. I know there is. I just don't know what.
I don't care about life anymore. Half the time I want to kill myself. Half the time I just want to die, not caring how I go.
Every scar on my body has a meaning. A moment. And a possibility.
I will fight back if you touch me and I don't trust you.
People say I seek attention by cutting. How do they know I cut? I don't tell people when I do it and my newest scars are on my upper thighs.
I cried when I wrote this because it gave me a whole new reason to why I shouldn't care anymore. |
meeshell.
Ink Slinger
Age: 13
Gender: Female
Posts: 753 | July 30th, 2008 at 02:02am I always put on this carefree smiley act whenever I'm around new people. Maybe it's because I don't want them to think I'm some manic, psycho, depressed thirteen year old who acts way too old for her age. Maybe it's because I think that's what they want.  It just gets so hard sometimes. I feel like it's emotional draining me. |
tinkerbell.
Cliché Catastrophe
Age: 18
Gender: Female
Posts: 396 | July 30th, 2008 at 02:47am I'm dizzy all day 350/365 days a year & i hid that from my family....they think im fine but im sick all the time |
kill me Abba
Amateur Author
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Posts: 276 | July 30th, 2008 at 07:31am Ray Toro:I always put on this carefree smiley act whenever I'm around new people. Maybe it's because I don't want them to think I'm some manic, psycho, depressed thirteen year old who acts way too old for her age. Maybe it's because I think that's what they want. It just gets so hard sometimes. I feel like it's emotional draining me.
You sound like me. xD
I can't tell my parents I write, they barely come to the school concerts for my choir. I feel out of the loop, because I don't chose to like country or play tennis. Or because I wake up later than they want, and go to bed when they're fast asleep. I'm a night person, I work better in the night than the day. I have things that they don't like and I feel excluded, because I'm different from them. |
kill me Abba
Amateur Author
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Posts: 276 | July 30th, 2008 at 07:32am From Hero to Zero.:People can say all they want about me.
But when I see them do it, it hurts. I can't breathe, or think.
I always say that I don't care what people think of me.
But the truth is, I do.
I'm so weak.
Yeah I'm with you. |
Sara
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 3485 | July 30th, 2008 at 07:35am ~ Pulling out my hair is not 'something I do when I'm bored', it's a condition that you have told me was disgusting so many times that I feel scared to tell you about it.
~ I try way too hard to be the perfect daughter. |
Heartstrings
Grammar Guru
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 4053 | July 30th, 2008 at 02:05pm I watch how my friends act and react to what I say. I notice their body gestures, the look in their eyes, stance, language and tone of voice. Just because they don' t say what they are really thinking, doesn't mean I haven't picked up on it.
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I don't want to look for my father, because I'm scared of being rejected again. |
