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ZoeePea
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 1904 | July 30th, 2008 at 02:56pm My family don't know I like to write stories. I'm just scared what my mum would think of me... It's a strange feeling.
La Viole Blanche: I don't want to look for my father, because I'm scared of being rejected again.
I so want to find my dad. I don't tell my mum because I know it's going to upset her, but I want to know who he is and why he left. If he rejects me again, then it's his loss. He's probably a waster anyway. |
Skrillex.
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 1181 | July 31st, 2008 at 12:02am My family don't know that, sometimes, I prefer my friends over them.
I cry myself to sleep, as every family problem they pile on me, get to me and just make me feel like their own personal fuckin' slave. |
kill me Abba
Amateur Author
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Posts: 276 | July 31st, 2008 at 03:57am ^ Yeah. I'm with you there. |
Fall Out Haley.
Ink Slinger
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 816 | July 31st, 2008 at 06:50am Hmm... a secret.
There was a point and time when I didn't even really know myself. I was leading a life I never thought I'd lead; it was the worst feeling ever. I'd cry everyday, I felt so damn alone in the world. I felt like I was in a glass exhibit, with everyone pointing and laughing and such. It was horrible. Finally one day I woke up, and I realized, that I could do something about it. I as a person, had the will power to turn my life around. And I did.
That's kind of a secret, because not many people know about my depressed phase. |
Cocaine.
Ink Slinger
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Posts: 782 | July 31st, 2008 at 11:30pm Sometimes, I wish I were born a guy.
Which sounds really weird, because I know I'm not "a guy born in a girl's body", but... I dunno. D:
That's the reason why I have a fixation with girly guys and stuff, and guys wearing makeup. Lmfao, I'm weird.
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baby_girl9892
Amateur Author
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 112 | August 1st, 2008 at 05:54am - I still cut
- I have suicidal thoughts
- I hate my body
- I hate myself
- I love my blood brother so much I couldn't tell him b4 he left
- I hear voices in my fucking head
- I fake my smiles almost everyday
- I fake being happy
- I fake being me |
braineater.
Amateur Author
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 118 | August 1st, 2008 at 08:12am i used to and sometimes still get the urge to cut.
my crippling social anxiety keeps me from going out and doing things, and is what keeps me locked up in my room on the internet; all of that plays a major part in why i'm depressed most of the time.
i have gender identity issues.
i sometimes fake like i'm sick/act out/generally be a jackass in school because i crave the attention, but yet i hate making a spectacle of myself. |
Filistata
Cliché Catastrophe
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 496 | August 1st, 2008 at 10:06am This is the first time I've really let this out anywhere.
I haven't seen my dad in four years, and haven't called or spoken to him in two. Everyone thinks it's because I'm "just not ready" to talk to him. But the truth is, whenever I think of him, I feel no emotion but anger and hate......even though he really hasn't done anything wrong. I get jealous of girls who are so close to their fathers, and sometimes I wish me and my dad were like that again. But at the same time, the thought of hugging him or showing any kind of affection repulses me. I have no idea why. I don't want to talk to him because I can't stand to hear his voice. But sometimes, when I think about him, I start sobbing and feel terrible, but that only lasts for a few minutes, and then I'm back to hating him.
No one really knows this. And there's no point in saying it, because I don't understand it myself.
=/ |
zero;
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 12
Gender: Female
Posts: 1384 | August 1st, 2008 at 11:22am There were times in my life where I've wished that my life was more tragic than now. I want people to care. |
Nae
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 2877 | August 1st, 2008 at 05:55pm I attempted to end my life three times before I met him |
Miss.Smiles
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 1033 | August 1st, 2008 at 09:53pm acid martyr:Even though I tell everyone I'm fine and happy, inside I'm depressed, and have been for about half a year. So much ven to the point where I cannot feel if I'm hungry or not.
I'm afraid to tell anyone and try to get help, because I don't want to be rejected or frowned upon. No one would understand where I stand, not even my best friend.
You're not the only one I use to be like that in the outside I was all smiled and laughter care free about everything but inside I was just dying slowly from how sad and alone I felt.
And if you need somebody to talk to I'm here  |
Miss.Smiles
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 1033 | August 1st, 2008 at 09:55pm My secret isn't that big but I feel bad about keeping it to myself.
I'm moving with my mom to a different city and I haven't told my best friends, and I keep lying telling them that I'm going to stay here and graduate with them when all of that are just lies and I don't how they will ever forgive me. |
Mortiferous
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 1870 | August 2nd, 2008 at 11:39am ~I live alone
~I'm suing my dad
~I was abused
~I hate myself
~I still cut
~I'm a bitch
~I'm gross and ugly and people lie to me constantly.
~I eat a lot... but I'm gross and skinny.
~I'm too used to abuse. Things must be bad, or else I cannot function.
~I really dislike myself
~I'm still a child inside
~I'm too mature sometimes
~I have a gut feeling I'm going to fail in life. I don't care anymore
~I define sadism
~I believe in a Goddess called Uni and a God called Verse. Universe. I talk to Uni and make deals with her. She sometimes upholds her parts, but I rarely uphold mine. I just don't care enough.
~I think I have the ability to control millions of coloured petals with my imagination. I hear them talk in my head.
~I have many imaginary friends. They tell me to do things that are against the law. I usually follow their orders out of boredom.
~I stopped caring after I lost my will.
~I lost my will years ago.
~I drink
~I smoke
~I've done drugs.
~I think I'm an idiot, but I can quote things my parents never knew about.
~I think I'm bisexual because I'm not accepted.
~I'm depressed a lot.
~I cry. A lot.
~ I hate my mother, who is kind and loving and needy.
~I have a few friends because my dad forced me to stay inside for long periods of time.
~I feel alone.
~Inside, I know I'll never get anything that I want. I just can't care anymore. I'll cry and cut and smoke and drink myself away. |
zero;
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 12
Gender: Female
Posts: 1384 | August 2nd, 2008 at 04:01pm I don't love my family as much as I did five years ago. |
Nae
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 2877 | August 2nd, 2008 at 04:42pm From Hero to Zero.:I don't love my family as much as I did five years ago. |
Heartstrings
Grammar Guru
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 4053 | August 3rd, 2008 at 11:20am I can't accept myself for who I am. |
Tentacle
Writer's Block
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 39 | August 4th, 2008 at 07:32am I barely get a word in in a conversation. I just sit back and listen. They don't know how much I know.
I hate myself. |
Finding_Forever
Writer's Block
Age: 14
Gender: Male
Posts: 32 | August 4th, 2008 at 02:43pm Sometimes i just break out and cry because of the deaths ive had in my family, who were quite important to me. My grandfather pretty much was my father. My dad constantly works, and he used to make up for everything that my dad was never there for. It wasnt a grandfather, grandson relationship, it was a father-son one. i'll never get over his death honestly |
ZoeePea
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 1904 | August 4th, 2008 at 03:54pm ^ that's sad. I'm so glad I've never experienced death of someone close. I'm like that with my gran though. She worries about me so much more than my mum it makes me laugh.
and I don't think anyone realises just how happy I am with my life.
So it's not perfect, but I'm so happy with everything. =] |
vikki1331
Writer's Block
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Posts: 11 | August 7th, 2008 at 03:31am Well this is mine. I feel so alone. All the time. I think im so selfish becasue I always think I'm alone. Also because my mom says I am. I've lost so many friends and I try so hard to keep them, but most of the time they think im to high maintence and my problems are too much for them. I did try turning to my sister once. That was a big mistake. (sorry if i sound like a baby) |
