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StolenSerenity
Writer's Block
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 98 | August 7th, 2008 at 05:12am Oh. Here's another one....
→I'm afraid that I'll become an alcoholic like my biological father. |
i defy you stars.
Cliché Catastrophe
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 655 | August 7th, 2008 at 03:48pm I'm always so happy and nice and kind to people. They don't know that I analyse everything they do. I notice all their little quirks and think of ways to use it in a piece of writing or art- anything. I am able to notice when people do things that I know will not be accepted socially and I instantly tell them about it. I wish people would stop telling me their secrets. I've got too many to protect already.
I still want him.
I wish he knew how he hurt me.
I wish I didn't feel so alone. |
baby_girl9892
Amateur Author
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 112 | August 8th, 2008 at 01:34am i sit in the corner at lunch and cry because when it comes right down to it, i only have 1 true friend |
Spunk Ransom
Writer's Block
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Posts: 24 | August 8th, 2008 at 01:48am Filistata: This is the first time I've really let this out anywhere.
I haven't seen my dad in four years, and haven't called or spoken to him in two. Everyone thinks it's because I'm "just not ready" to talk to him. But the truth is, whenever I think of him, I feel no emotion but anger and hate......even though he really hasn't done anything wrong. I get jealous of girls who are so close to their fathers, and sometimes I wish me and my dad were like that again. But at the same time, the thought of hugging him or showing any kind of affection repulses me. I have no idea why. I don't want to talk to him because I can't stand to hear his voice. But sometimes, when I think about him, I start sobbing and feel terrible, but that only lasts for a few minutes, and then I'm back to hating him.
No one really knows this. And there's no point in saying it, because I don't understand it myself.
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That's the same exact thing for me. I thought I was alone. |
Buddy Holly
Amateur Author
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 261 | August 8th, 2008 at 03:26am I love that I'm a happy person and all, and my life is normal and I'm content.
But sometimes I wish I was messed up, and had a more tragic life, so people would pay more attention to me. |
baby_girl9892
Amateur Author
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 112 | August 8th, 2008 at 05:53am Buddy Holly:I love that I'm a happy person and all, and my life is normal and I'm content.
But sometimes I wish I was messed up, and had a more tragic life, so people would pay more attention to me. . . . i wish that i had your life. . . maybe then people would love me. . . |
BODY SHOTS
Cliché Catastrophe
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 721 | August 8th, 2008 at 08:43am Filistata: This is the first time I've really let this out anywhere.
I haven't seen my dad in four years, and haven't called or spoken to him in two. Everyone thinks it's because I'm "just not ready" to talk to him. But the truth is, whenever I think of him, I feel no emotion but anger and hate......even though he really hasn't done anything wrong. I get jealous of girls who are so close to their fathers, and sometimes I wish me and my dad were like that again. But at the same time, the thought of hugging him or showing any kind of affection repulses me. I have no idea why. I don't want to talk to him because I can't stand to hear his voice. But sometimes, when I think about him, I start sobbing and feel terrible, but that only lasts for a few minutes, and then I'm back to hating him.
No one really knows this. And there's no point in saying it, because I don't understand it myself.
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Have you been reading my mind for the past 2 years?
you pulled the words right out of mouth. |
the endless.
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 2623 | August 10th, 2008 at 09:18am My mom has cancer and I really don't care. |
Maxwell Green.
Cliché Catastrophe
Age: 69
Gender: Female
Posts: 551 | August 10th, 2008 at 06:25pm who's flea?:My friends don't know that the reason I have trouble talking to them,
Is because my freshman year I was talking to one of my friends about some shit I was going through
And she just completely bitched at me about how I complain too much.
My 'friends' used to tell me the same thing. Once, one of them even told me to 'shut up, no one cares about your problems with your mom.'
I never told anyone my problems again. |
Skrillex.
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 1181 | August 10th, 2008 at 10:58pm My dad is pushin' me to the egde.
I think if he pushes me one slightest bit more, i'll start cutting again. 
He makes out that every stupid thing in the house that goes wrong, is down to me.
He favouritises my brothers over me.
I'm not his perfect daughter. I sometimes feel, like, he doesn't like me, never mind love me.
Oh, BTW, "Dad", My writing takes me away from you. Thank fuck in my opinion.
I need help. |
zero;
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 12
Gender: Female
Posts: 1384 | August 11th, 2008 at 11:25am My parents scare me like hell.
No matter how much I try to act brave in front of them and everybody else.
I'm fucking scared.
Zero the Coward. |
Skrillex.
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 1181 | August 11th, 2008 at 02:52pm From Hero to Zero.:My parents scare me like hell.
No matter how much I try to act brave in front of them and everybody else.
I'm fucking scared.
Zero the Coward.
I feel exactly the same. |
Heartstrings.
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Posts: 2703 | August 11th, 2008 at 03:10pm I fear for myself sometimes.
Because I'm too afraid I'd end up a failure.
And I hate thinking about death.
I hate thinking about dying.
And La Viole Blanch, I understand completely about the friends thing.
I think I'm too paranoid. |
unlovable.
Writer's Block
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 85 | August 11th, 2008 at 05:01pm When my dad had cancer I wasn't worried, but my whole family was.
I never cried, even though I love him,
And when he had chemo it was like he was a completely different person, and I was scared of him.
I'm also way too paranoid.
If someone comes to the door when I'm in the house on my own, I'll hide under a desk until they go away. |
Buffy-willow
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 1352 | August 11th, 2008 at 08:28pm I have this need to please everyone, and I rarely do things for myself. It's always for other people.
It's for this reason I bottle everything up. No one knows.
I haven't cried since last august.
I shout at myself in the mirror, telling myself about all my flaws.
I push guys away when they get too close, even if I've been flirting with them. It's always my fault, and I hae myself for being so picky, and naive.
I'm a major hypochondriac, but I think there might be something seriously wrong this time.
I'm glad this thread is here. No one I know will see. =)
sorry if you read this. I know so many other people are a lot worse off than me. |
devils little angel
Amateur Author
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 293 | August 11th, 2008 at 09:02pm My secret is about my late grandmother.
She had a fall 2 years ago. Unfortunately I witnessed it, I saw her wheeled into the ambulance on a stretcher thingy. That was the last time I ever saw her. . Want to know why? Because I was too fucking scared to visit her in the hospital the 2 weeks she was in there. The rest of my family visited her, but I didn't. I was the only one who didn't visit her. She asked to see me, she wanted to see me, but I didn't come. Nope I was a fucking idiot. I have a stupid fear of anything medical.
2 years on, the regret is eating inside of me. I can't handle it. The guilt is so much, some nights I cry myself to sleep because of my stupidity.
I had nightmares for about 2 months after she died. It was her as a ghost, telling me how ashamed she was of me not to visit her .
I told my Dad about the nightmares, he didn't do anything about it though  . Nobody, and I mean nobody in my family knows about how much the regret is getting to me. I don't intend on anyone knowing. I bottle things up, its for the best. |
devils little angel
Amateur Author
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 293 | August 11th, 2008 at 09:03pm BeeBlasphemy:
I'm also way too paranoid.
If someone comes to the door when I'm in the house on my own, I'll hide under a desk until they go away.
Same. |
Skrillex.
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 1181 | August 11th, 2008 at 10:16pm I love everyone in this thread. You're able to release how you feel, and no one will judge. 
My dad doesn't know my gran and grandah disowned me. |
Buddy Holly
Amateur Author
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 261 | August 12th, 2008 at 01:18am devils little angel:BeeBlasphemy:
I'm also way too paranoid.
If someone comes to the door when I'm in the house on my own, I'll hide under a desk until they go away.
Same.
I have to turn on every light in the house, every TV, and blast music if I'm home alone at night. |
dallas winston.
Amateur Author
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 239 | August 12th, 2008 at 05:43am I try so hard to avoid my mother because whenever I see her, I just want to strangle her with my bear hands. She is the reason I'm like this. She does not love me. I hate her. I hate her. This is not teenage angst or hormones, this is hatred for the woman who gave me life and then kicked the life out of my when I was 7. Bitch. I hope she dies a slow, agonising, painful death just so she has enough time to think about what she has done to me and my family. |
