RedRiot.
Amateur Author
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 191 | August 16th, 2008 at 03:47pm I know I can't tell yet, and I didn't even had sex.....but I thing there is a small chance that I could become pregnant after what we did.
I don't want to be pregnant now.....I'm not even 16 yet!
I have never wanted my period so much......I am scared shitless......
No one judge me please... |
Dorian Gray.
Cliché Catastrophe
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 609 | August 16th, 2008 at 09:44pm I am scared that you are too perfect for me. |
Evanescent Dasha
Ink Slinger
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Posts: 895 | August 16th, 2008 at 10:57pm I never thought I would be live to see my 16th birthday or my 18th... But here I am almost 18.
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I've had a battle with an eating disorder that no-one in my family knew about.
I mainly did it because my family badgered me about being to fat.... so I lost it... for them.
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the lover.
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 47
Gender: Male
Posts: 1778 | August 17th, 2008 at 09:49am I drink. I don't sleep. I don't eat. I smoke, but never cigarettes. I cut. I do drugs. I've lost my virginity (but I don't regret it).
I'm heartbroken and even though he cheated on me twice, I'd do anything to have him back.
I could never tell anyone in my family this.  |
Antagonist.
Grammar Guru
Age: 18
Gender: Female
Posts: 4153 | August 17th, 2008 at 02:46pm
My family could... never possibly understand how torn I feel amongst them.
Having been raised a christian and turning out to be someone that is against traditional religion is.. hard.
I know they love me, I know they always will. But I'll always be 'wrong' in their eyes.
They encourage me to go to church with them, I want to so badly tell them that I can't, 'I'm gay.'
But I can never do that because they wont understand. They wont understand this is me and not some human fallen into temptation by the devil.
They never will understand because of their beliefs. They'll never understand how much of an outcast I feel.
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F'n'stein.
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 2476 | August 17th, 2008 at 03:51pm I wish I could go and see them more...
But the awkwardness still lingers. Two years on.
They remind me so much of you.. it hurts. |
Crookshanks
Amateur Author
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 258 | August 17th, 2008 at 05:20pm electricity.:
My family could... never possibly understand how torn I feel amongst them.
Having been raised a christian and turning out to be someone that is against traditional religion is.. hard.
I'm so scared that they'll turn against me if I tell them the truth.
No one knows that all of my problems would be solved if they just left me alone. If every single one of them went away, I'd be the happiest person alive.
They would never understand. |
Skrillex.
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 1172 | August 17th, 2008 at 10:05pm I'm more suicidal these days than I was back then.
And thet thought that was bad. |
desperate endeavor.
Cliché Catastrophe
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 672 | August 18th, 2008 at 03:50pm I worry constantly about my weight, even though I know I'm not fat.
Being a size three has never felt this bad.
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devils little angel
Amateur Author
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 293 | August 19th, 2008 at 05:52pm Everybodys amazing on here 
I don't go to school anymore because of him. He ruined my life, I hope he rots in hell. I hope everyone there rots in hell.
I'm so selfish, but they deserve it. Not for me, but for all the people whose lives they make a living hell :/. |
baby_girl9892
Amateur Author
Age: 16
Gender: Female
Posts: 112 | August 20th, 2008 at 03:23am i am too scared to tell my parents something. . . too scared on what they might do to me. . . . to scared just too scared. . . .
If not for her, then i would have killed myself. . . . she helped me thru it.
i have mental problems and nobody knows of but me. . . not even my stupid arse teachers can see it. . . .
I want to die because of all the fighting in my house
i don't eat all that much, because mommy dearest, father and my brother by choice eat most of it before i can serve myself
i think i'm ugly, and fat and so disgusting that idk why she loves me.
my family doesn't care. they're trying to buy my love back with a sweet 16 party
people who see me make fun of my small size and i wish that someday their words will kill me
as soon as i graduate, i'm leaving for good. not coming back..... EVER AGAIN.
I'm going to live with the most amazing person ever. . . my girlfriend brooke |
Jadee.Jinxxx
Writer's Block
Age: 14
Gender: Female
Posts: 23 | August 20th, 2008 at 05:28am
I have a lot of things I can't exactly tell people close to me because I don't want to be thought of any differently.
I act mature because if I don't someone will get hurt.
I am constantly labelled as the responsible one; I must live up to the title.
I believe all the funny people I know are naturals, I feel I have to act funny just so no one will suspect how much I hate myself.
I have nothing to hate about myself.
I hate myself, but am afraid to turn to alternatives, although, I do find an odd satisfaction by digging and scraping my nails along my stomach.
Sometimes, I wonder what it would be like if I actually slit someone's throat.
Yes, I sometimes have homodical thoughts, but it's not of people I know.
The people I feel I need tokill are merely images and personalities of my mind and personality.
I could never bring myself to end my life or anyone elses. Although, there is still time.
I can lie and neither be caught nor feel guilty.
I usually lie to people I don't like, so I won't hurt them, although it's the second worse thing I could do.
I'm shallow, but I know that I can never get a good looking guy to love me.
I wonder what it would be like to drop dead, but then I couldn't get the answer if I did.
I wish a shallow boy would date me, just so I can break his heart.
I wouldn't surprised if I woke up in a ditch with cuts and bruises all over in fact, I want it to happen.
I'm often labelled as the-asian-girl-who-can-do-anything, truth is, I can't do anything worth shit! I'm mediocre at best! I want to pound that into everyone's skull just so they'll leave me the FUCK alone.
People tell me I'm pretty, I get bashful, but truly think about all that I lack that links to beauty. My friend is beautiful. I envy her. Guys talk to her and date her. Guys don't talk to me, the teenage guys in cars merely slow down and say what a 'hot-body' I've got. I want to be valued for my mind and self, but know that there is nothing in those categories.
Sometimes, I just want to sit in the corner and cry.
I secretly yearn for a disfunctional family.
Sometimes, I wish I had a whole bunch of weed to smoke and get baked out of my mind just so I don't have to face REALITY.
Sometimes, I choose to be anti-social just so no one will know who I truly am.
Fanfiction is the best therapy for me. To write of something that is alluring to your imagination just flows and releases you. The untouchables become clay to mould in your very own hands. It's lazy writing, but so...INVIGORATING!
I'm truly ashamed of myself. I don't hug my parents, nor tell them I love them, yet I can say these to strangers and friends.
I firmly believe my mother is an idiot. She is being used by my ex-neighbour, yet she doesn't see it. I want to tell her, but I can't word it right.
I would probably do anything for college/university money.
My friends know I'm dysfunctional, but not like this.
Sometimes, I close my eyes and imagine my happy place, I have yet to find it.
I wonder sometimes, if I close my eyes, if I would be able to open them again.
I'm afraid to disappoint anyone!
Part of the reason I want my face pierced is because I want to see myself BLEED.
*By writing this, I am taking the cowards way out of telling my friends.
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xrosesaregreenx
Writer's Block
Age: -
Gender: Female
Posts: 13 | August 20th, 2008 at 05:04pm I wonder what it would be like if my parents died, what it would be like if I died
I get into moods where i will do basically anything, then i get out of them, and i'm scared by what i did or almost did.
sometimes i hardly eat anything then go and work out at the gym or swim laps for hours. trying to push myself past dizziness.
i don't really know if i cut myself but i scratch little lines onto my skin with a pin, and then find satisfaction when i feel the sting when sweat runs along the little scrapes as i work out.
Sometime in the next two years i want to run away
i flinch whenever one of my parents attempts to hug me because of what they do to each other. I used to cry over it every night as i heard screaming and things in the house breaking. Now I just hate them, things have died down, but at the same time are worse, i will never be the same around them
sometimes i'm afraid of myself and what i might do
i would probably be dead if eric wasn't in my life |
F'n'stein.
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 15
Gender: Female
Posts: 2476 | August 21st, 2008 at 11:29am I know she hates me.
I would just love to know why.
Since mum's talked to her, she's just got worse.
My grandmother hates me.
I feel like screaming at her sometimes.
Just to look at me. Just to talk.
I guess we'll always be like this... |
modernorganic
Fanfic Fanatic
Age: 15
Gender: Male
Posts: 1277 | August 21st, 2008 at 11:32am I cry every night and nobody knows. Nobody in my family knows that it's their fault. |
