What Grounds Was it Ever of Any Value?

I really hate wondering what's going to happen. I want to know what his intentions are so badly.

See, I met a boy at school, he's (seems) really nice and we hung out Friday. We talked and continued getting to know each other more and we kissed. I have no idea what his intentions are at all. I want to know what to expect.

I don't expect him to ask me out anytime soon, we hardly know each other. But it would be nice to know what he expects to happen.

I hate how paranoid I am.

I'm afraid it's just going to be the same thing all over again; like a boy, kiss a boy, get ignored by a boy.

I don't want that to happen again.

I want to think the best of this guy, but it's hard when he wasn't enthused to see me this morning after not talking for two days.

I really don't know.

My life is ridiculous.
(but I love my life)

I feel like this is my new nightly routine. I don't like it, I wish I could stop but it really is becoming the best way to get everything out.

How are all of you?

If, on a whim, something of such esteem and value can be replaced with another, then on what grounds was it ever of any more value to begin with?