[[Hey Unfaithful]] --I Will Teach You To Be Stronger--

you know there are times when I wonder...what did I do to deserve this life?? and i dont mean that im wondering why i have such an awful life. what im saying is why am i so privelaged as to have an education & food & a roof over my head among many other things when there is so much poverty and there are starving children all over the world?? i really dont appreciate all that i have & i waste it. if i could give it all to someone else - someone who actually wanted & deserved it - id do all in my power for that. why should i have something that im throwing away anywayz?? and i know that im thinking that admitting all of this justifies what im doing. i know im a horrible person that doesnt treat her friends or family right, doesnt do her fair share of work, doesnt study as hard as she should, doesnt try for anything, is too lazy, ungrateful, disrespectful, and uncaring. but i dont know why i have so many opportunites when I will never use them. im not a good person but i have so much. why do all the good ppl have so much less than i do?? i wish they could have my life...im such a waste.
-F. is for Faithless.♥