[35] Blah.
I've been grounded for an unknown period of time.
I am banned to my room until:
•I am turning in all of my homework
•I can keep my room clean
•I'm not missing the bus
•I can wake up by myself in the morning
•I don't yell at my brother
•I don't back talk anyone
•I stop being violent towards Mom & Jacob (my brother)
•I can keep the bathroom clean
•I practice piano without being asked & with no complaints
•I don't complain about what's for dinner
•I take my shower at 8:30 every night without being reminded.
Also, Stephen says that if he hears my stereo at all, he is going to "rip it out of the wall and throw it the f**k away". Direct quote, by the way.
But, my parents are never home any more, and I hate it.
Oddly, when I got grounded, I felt unnaturally refreshed.
Like, I feel REALLY good, like a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.
I feel relieved, and I have NO CLUE why...
I have, unfortunately, gotten back into the rut of not eating.
I don't WANT to not eat, I just... can't.
All it takes is one person to break my heart, and all it takes is one broken heart to make me feel like s**t about myself.
That's when I stop eating.
I don't think about it. I just... do.
It's a good thing my gag reflex is too strong for me to be able to make myself throw up.
Mrs. Griffin let me re-take the chemical compounds final, and I think I did pretty well. I don't know for sure...
But, I probably did, because, as much as I regret it, I cheated.
I wrote all the polyatomic ions on my hand.
And for the first time, I hate myself for cheating.
Mrs. Griffin just has this... aura... that makes me feel oh-so ashamed whenever I do wrong.
I hope that we have a snow day on Friday. I really, really, really do.
Usually, I hate snow days.
But I want this one to come so badly.
Probably because my parents will let me go over to Quinn's! : D
I actually want to see Cole really badly.
I mean, I want to see her more, of course...
But... Wow.
Cole keeps randomly popping into my head... It's weird.
I mean, like, I wouldn't say that I like him...
I think that it's just a mixture of the fact that I'm at the age where my hormones are all in a frenzy with the fact that he intrigues me to no end.
I hate hormones. It's like I want to jump everybody I come across.
I feel freaky and pervish. :[
I also can't find my Nintendo DS.
Gr.
That has my Fullmetal Alchemist game in ittt!
xMargie!
I am banned to my room until:
•I am turning in all of my homework
•I can keep my room clean
•I'm not missing the bus
•I can wake up by myself in the morning
•I don't yell at my brother
•I don't back talk anyone
•I stop being violent towards Mom & Jacob (my brother)
•I can keep the bathroom clean
•I practice piano without being asked & with no complaints
•I don't complain about what's for dinner
•I take my shower at 8:30 every night without being reminded.
Also, Stephen says that if he hears my stereo at all, he is going to "rip it out of the wall and throw it the f**k away". Direct quote, by the way.
But, my parents are never home any more, and I hate it.
Oddly, when I got grounded, I felt unnaturally refreshed.
Like, I feel REALLY good, like a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.
I feel relieved, and I have NO CLUE why...
I have, unfortunately, gotten back into the rut of not eating.
I don't WANT to not eat, I just... can't.
All it takes is one person to break my heart, and all it takes is one broken heart to make me feel like s**t about myself.
That's when I stop eating.
I don't think about it. I just... do.
It's a good thing my gag reflex is too strong for me to be able to make myself throw up.
Mrs. Griffin let me re-take the chemical compounds final, and I think I did pretty well. I don't know for sure...
But, I probably did, because, as much as I regret it, I cheated.
I wrote all the polyatomic ions on my hand.
And for the first time, I hate myself for cheating.
Mrs. Griffin just has this... aura... that makes me feel oh-so ashamed whenever I do wrong.
I hope that we have a snow day on Friday. I really, really, really do.
Usually, I hate snow days.
But I want this one to come so badly.
Probably because my parents will let me go over to Quinn's! : D
I actually want to see Cole really badly.
I mean, I want to see her more, of course...
But... Wow.
Cole keeps randomly popping into my head... It's weird.
I mean, like, I wouldn't say that I like him...
I think that it's just a mixture of the fact that I'm at the age where my hormones are all in a frenzy with the fact that he intrigues me to no end.
I hate hormones. It's like I want to jump everybody I come across.
I feel freaky and pervish. :[
I also can't find my Nintendo DS.
Gr.
That has my Fullmetal Alchemist game in ittt!
xMargie!
Posted on December 18th, 2008 at 02:42am
Your Dad makes me angry.
Like I hate the way her treats you. He expects you to be 'the perfect child' when he should just love you for being his daughter and accept your flaws. I think that it's almost a sort of child abuse, and it's wrong. It just makes me angry inside.
EAT. LIKE SERIOUSLY, same thing happened after the Carrie thing and when I didn't eat I was just in a depressed mood all the time. I've been eating like a horse lately and it's awesome because I feel happy again.
Who broke your heart? I'll break THEM.
english house, December 18th, 2008 at 11:43:54pm