just realize what i just realized.
ahh... christmas... my favorite day out of the whole freakin year. but this year... everything is different.
i mean sure i have lights outside my house...
and yea we have presents under the tree that my family decorated...
but it's not christmas this year.
this year it seems like all tomorrow is going to be is wanna-be christmas pasts.
first of all, for the first time in my ENTIRE LIFE i'm sick on christmas eve. sick! i never get sick around christmas time! never EVER! i get sick all year long even during the summer time, but never once have i been sick on christmas day or eve. in fact i don't think i've ever been sick throughout the whole week leading up to christmas! there goes fifteen years of tradition...
and second, it's not even cold. i mean i love the stereotypical white christmas with snow falling all night and fresh powdery snow when you wake up in the morning. hot chocolate throughout the evening.
however this year the weather decided to be lame and crappy.
yesterday it was like 65 degrees! maybe hotter! 65 two days before christmas! are you flippin kidding me! this just goes to prove taht global warming ain't no joke. this is off topic but i really want each of my kids to have a chance to see a polar bear. and i don't have kids right now. i probably won't have children for another ten years or so. i would truly be devastated if they never got to see a polar bear. :(
and third this year is different because for the first time in my life i had my heart broken about 3 months before christmas. i know i sound like some crazy obsessed girl that just wants attention but i'm not.
this year there's only one thing on my christmas list. actually HE isn't a thing. he just so happens to be one of the greatest people i've ever met.
he's smart and he's funny and he's athletic and he's charming and he's... amazing.
and i only use the word amazing when i honestly think that something (or someone) is beyond belief.
and his name just rolls off the tip of my tongue ever time i say it. it's perfect. HE is perfect. and if he were here right now he word be really mad at me because i just called him perfect and he doesn't like perfection. what is doesn't realize is that he IS perfection. and i love him. so so SO much.
he's like a favorite song. all you wanna do is listen to it all night long. (and not in a perverted way)
he's like the flowers that your boyfriend send you on valentines day. you can't help but stop and smile every time you see them.
he's like your best friend's name. you automatically turn your head every time you hear it.
well i seem to be rambling now. i'm sorry. but when i even so much as try to talk to him my voice goes dry and i get all dizzy and can't think striaght.
but he is the reason that i'm actually gonna start posting my stories. because when i tried to write a letter to him, it seemed as though all of the things that i wanted my mouth to say were flowing out of my fingertips freely. it was relaxing. and even though i never gave him the letter, i think i've found my calling.
so vinnie, thank you. i owe you big guy.
and to anyone else still reading this, thank you also.
well if you do happen to still be reading this, please comment. please let me know if you think that i'm just crazy. honestly.
once again, gratzie. i hope to hear from you guys soon.
-hope
i mean sure i have lights outside my house...
and yea we have presents under the tree that my family decorated...
but it's not christmas this year.
this year it seems like all tomorrow is going to be is wanna-be christmas pasts.
first of all, for the first time in my ENTIRE LIFE i'm sick on christmas eve. sick! i never get sick around christmas time! never EVER! i get sick all year long even during the summer time, but never once have i been sick on christmas day or eve. in fact i don't think i've ever been sick throughout the whole week leading up to christmas! there goes fifteen years of tradition...
and second, it's not even cold. i mean i love the stereotypical white christmas with snow falling all night and fresh powdery snow when you wake up in the morning. hot chocolate throughout the evening.
however this year the weather decided to be lame and crappy.
yesterday it was like 65 degrees! maybe hotter! 65 two days before christmas! are you flippin kidding me! this just goes to prove taht global warming ain't no joke. this is off topic but i really want each of my kids to have a chance to see a polar bear. and i don't have kids right now. i probably won't have children for another ten years or so. i would truly be devastated if they never got to see a polar bear. :(
and third this year is different because for the first time in my life i had my heart broken about 3 months before christmas. i know i sound like some crazy obsessed girl that just wants attention but i'm not.
this year there's only one thing on my christmas list. actually HE isn't a thing. he just so happens to be one of the greatest people i've ever met.
he's smart and he's funny and he's athletic and he's charming and he's... amazing.
and i only use the word amazing when i honestly think that something (or someone) is beyond belief.
and his name just rolls off the tip of my tongue ever time i say it. it's perfect. HE is perfect. and if he were here right now he word be really mad at me because i just called him perfect and he doesn't like perfection. what is doesn't realize is that he IS perfection. and i love him. so so SO much.
he's like a favorite song. all you wanna do is listen to it all night long. (and not in a perverted way)
he's like the flowers that your boyfriend send you on valentines day. you can't help but stop and smile every time you see them.
he's like your best friend's name. you automatically turn your head every time you hear it.
well i seem to be rambling now. i'm sorry. but when i even so much as try to talk to him my voice goes dry and i get all dizzy and can't think striaght.
but he is the reason that i'm actually gonna start posting my stories. because when i tried to write a letter to him, it seemed as though all of the things that i wanted my mouth to say were flowing out of my fingertips freely. it was relaxing. and even though i never gave him the letter, i think i've found my calling.
so vinnie, thank you. i owe you big guy.
and to anyone else still reading this, thank you also.
well if you do happen to still be reading this, please comment. please let me know if you think that i'm just crazy. honestly.
once again, gratzie. i hope to hear from you guys soon.
-hope
Posted on December 25th, 2008 at 05:14am
your crazy hope lol jk ur awsome and i really wish you the best with this whole situation
WolvesFang29, December 30th, 2008 at 10:49:24am