i cant sleep tonight, all i think about is her right now, so im writing tis

without her, its like my life is now in a black whole, swolowed by darkness, with no light ever to be found, drifting forever in a vast void in witch none can reach it....she is that witch calms my heart beat after a heart attack, that witch makes my life go on when many times i wish to end, that witch god himslef has cast out of heaven, cause he does not think himslef worthy to be in her presents, she is my angel of peace, and i only wish to be around her....my dreams haunt me day and night, i try to forget, i try to move on, but my heart screams to be with perfection again, my soul wishes its shattered half back with it, i wish to be whole again, i hope to be with the one that i would die for, that i would always protect, and that i know would do the same for me...every day, i go through my school watching guys and girls hug, kiss, hold each other, tell them they love each other, and it pains me to see them thinking they found the one, when its just blind obsetion....seeing that makes me hurt........cause with her....i didnt just think she was the one, i konw she is...every time i sleep, she is in my dreams, in my mind, wishing me safty and guidance, even if it ment her self desruction ...witch in turn would lead to mine, i have no desire to hurt the ppl i love, i have no want to see pain around me....


i want it all to be over, i want it to just stop, i have too much pain, i have to much saddness, i want it to go away