Late Night Ramblings.
Its funny, not really funny, it’s crazy how people change. One day you’re there best friend but the next they are someone completely different. You don’t know who they are anymore. You move on from the past, it’s a terrifying thought. Who are you going to tell all your secrets too? Who are you going to trust?
It’s also crazy how you can be happy and be in the best of moods but then you hear something, one tiny thing and your mood just drops. But that tiny thing stays with you and you can’t help but think about it. That tiny thing will stick in your heart, eat away at you until you just let loose.
There is that one secret that is stowed away deep inside your heart. You don’t let anyone else know, for you fear they will judge you and hate you. The secret makes you vulnerable so of course you don’t want anyone to know, you don’t want to seem vulnerable. The secret will eventually kill you.
What do you do when people are telling you “oh he loves you, God loves everyone,” the second you tell them you don’t read the bible or you have sinned they freak out? It’s like you did the worst possible thing on earth. But didn’t you just tell me that God loves me and Jesus Christ died on the cross for my sins to be forgiven? Why is religion so contradicting?
I love how you can absolutely hate someone, or think you hate someone but realize they are only human. You recognize the good in them and become best friends. The one you tell absolutely everything too. The one person who you fully trust and you think that without them you’d die. Because without being able to explode to someone and them just sit there and listen, you would keep everything bottled up until the one when…BOOM.
They say love is amazing. If love is so amazing why are so many couples divorced?
Sometimes you just wish you could switch places with someone just so they know how you are feeling. So they know the pain you are going through. So they understand why you are shutting down the way are.
Sometimes shutting down is so you can stop feeling so much. If you shut down that means you can keep all the feelings away that are hurting you. In result, shutting down can be best.
It’s also crazy how you can be happy and be in the best of moods but then you hear something, one tiny thing and your mood just drops. But that tiny thing stays with you and you can’t help but think about it. That tiny thing will stick in your heart, eat away at you until you just let loose.
There is that one secret that is stowed away deep inside your heart. You don’t let anyone else know, for you fear they will judge you and hate you. The secret makes you vulnerable so of course you don’t want anyone to know, you don’t want to seem vulnerable. The secret will eventually kill you.
What do you do when people are telling you “oh he loves you, God loves everyone,” the second you tell them you don’t read the bible or you have sinned they freak out? It’s like you did the worst possible thing on earth. But didn’t you just tell me that God loves me and Jesus Christ died on the cross for my sins to be forgiven? Why is religion so contradicting?
I love how you can absolutely hate someone, or think you hate someone but realize they are only human. You recognize the good in them and become best friends. The one you tell absolutely everything too. The one person who you fully trust and you think that without them you’d die. Because without being able to explode to someone and them just sit there and listen, you would keep everything bottled up until the one when…BOOM.
They say love is amazing. If love is so amazing why are so many couples divorced?
Sometimes you just wish you could switch places with someone just so they know how you are feeling. So they know the pain you are going through. So they understand why you are shutting down the way are.
Sometimes shutting down is so you can stop feeling so much. If you shut down that means you can keep all the feelings away that are hurting you. In result, shutting down can be best.
Posted on April 23rd, 2009 at 04:53am
