i'm not wearing makeup and i sure as hell ain't blushing
i cannot believe this.
out of all the things you've ever done to me...
you practically brainwashed me and then you play mind tricks on me and now...
you just flat out slapped me in the face.
it may not have been literal... but boy my cheek has never been redder.
why?! why would you do that to me? ME of all people!
do you not realize how much you've already put me through and then to post that KNOWING that not only can the world read it, but there was a 99.9% chance that i would read it...
i can't even tell you how much that slap hurt.
and i don't mean the little girly kind.
or the "i didn't slap you... i just high-fived your face" kind either.
you can't make a joke about this.
twenty years later we WON'T joke about this!
you took all of the power in your body and totally hurled it in my direction!
and if that's not bad enough, there was almost a wall behind me.
so it's not like i could fall down and at least some of the force would be released.
that wall made me stand upright and just... take it.
and that wall was there because i didn't think i would ever have to fall again around you.
but i did. and i couldn't. and that's probably the worst part.
what am i gonna do the next time i see you?
because i can't look at you the same way now.
you promised me that things were ok and they were gonna BE ok!
but are they? look at you!
you're a... a MONSTER!
and quite frankly, it's extremely difficult to protect a monster.
and it's even harder to protect a monster that doesn't want to be protected.
i really hope you didn't mean what you said.
but deep inside of me, i know you did.
and even though right now, i seem mad at myself, i'm not.
i'm disappointed... and my heart has yet another cut on it because of you...
but honestly, i feel bad for you.
because in the end, you're screwing up your life.
not mine.
so good luck. i hope you get everything you ever wanted.
well that is everything EXCEPT FOR ME.
no matter how hard you try or beg or plead or cry, you WILL NEVER have me.
i know what you want most. i'm it. but i'm not stupid ya know.
hopefully i'm helping you. because we can't always get everything.
in fact, we can never have everything.
so put up or shut up.
but don't give up. even if i told you to, you wouldn't.
so i may as well not waste my breath.
-hopie
out of all the things you've ever done to me...
you practically brainwashed me and then you play mind tricks on me and now...
you just flat out slapped me in the face.
it may not have been literal... but boy my cheek has never been redder.
why?! why would you do that to me? ME of all people!
do you not realize how much you've already put me through and then to post that KNOWING that not only can the world read it, but there was a 99.9% chance that i would read it...
i can't even tell you how much that slap hurt.
and i don't mean the little girly kind.
or the "i didn't slap you... i just high-fived your face" kind either.
you can't make a joke about this.
twenty years later we WON'T joke about this!
you took all of the power in your body and totally hurled it in my direction!
and if that's not bad enough, there was almost a wall behind me.
so it's not like i could fall down and at least some of the force would be released.
that wall made me stand upright and just... take it.
and that wall was there because i didn't think i would ever have to fall again around you.
but i did. and i couldn't. and that's probably the worst part.
what am i gonna do the next time i see you?
because i can't look at you the same way now.
you promised me that things were ok and they were gonna BE ok!
but are they? look at you!
you're a... a MONSTER!
and quite frankly, it's extremely difficult to protect a monster.
and it's even harder to protect a monster that doesn't want to be protected.
i really hope you didn't mean what you said.
but deep inside of me, i know you did.
and even though right now, i seem mad at myself, i'm not.
i'm disappointed... and my heart has yet another cut on it because of you...
but honestly, i feel bad for you.
because in the end, you're screwing up your life.
not mine.
so good luck. i hope you get everything you ever wanted.
well that is everything EXCEPT FOR ME.
no matter how hard you try or beg or plead or cry, you WILL NEVER have me.
i know what you want most. i'm it. but i'm not stupid ya know.
hopefully i'm helping you. because we can't always get everything.
in fact, we can never have everything.
so put up or shut up.
but don't give up. even if i told you to, you wouldn't.
so i may as well not waste my breath.
-hopie
Posted on May 24th, 2009 at 05:05am
