Cycles= Life.
In a way, life on earth is a cycle. Everyone lives the same life-- we’re all born the same way, we all die the same way. We experience the same things, if not in different situations. We all depend on oxygen to keep us alive. Thus, a cycle is created.
Not only is the concept of life a cycle, situations in life are cycles as well. Even though you’ve lived through something before, you don’t learn. It’s quite irritating, but you’ll never do anything about it. Oh no, that would be a change in routine. A change in routine would break the cycle-- if only for a little bit.
I keep everything to myself; literally. Since I keep everything to myself, things bottle up. These things include emotions and thoughts-- what else would it include? At times, I break. I spill my guts out to whoever may be listening, and that’s where the problems start. Parents get involved, and the cycle is broken. For a while. They think everything is fine, that the cycle is finally gone, that there’s nothing to worry about. They’re wrong. The cycle has started again, if not with the same properties as before.
It’s hard to break routine. Routine is cycle. Cycle is life.
I don’t like talking about my emotions and thoughts. I can’t talk about my emotions and thoughts. I can talk about my emotions and thoughts. The frustration is endless! One minute I have the greatest urge to just spill everything, to get all information out in the open. Then, it’s gone. I’m sitting in a chair in the Guidance Counselor’s office, and I have nothing to say. I’m sitting outside with my parents, and I have nothing to say. I’m sitting in class with my friends, and I have nothing to say.
I follow this cycle, for if I didn’t I would completely fall apart. I have many cycles, but they all come back to include this one. This cycle of keeping things to myself. All others stem from this one, feed off this one, depend on this one.
For example: Something major happens, and I think about it. I continue to think about it, and emotions develop. These thoughts and emotions affect me to a point that alters my life, at least for a little while. Then comes the breaking point, and all rational thought is lost. When rational thought is regained, the process starts over again.
People depend on cycles to complete their lives. If they didn’t, they would feel empty; incomplete. It’s hard to change, and that’s perhaps the one truth that people fail to see.
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Obviously I can't speak for everyone-- this is simply my thought process.
Not only is the concept of life a cycle, situations in life are cycles as well. Even though you’ve lived through something before, you don’t learn. It’s quite irritating, but you’ll never do anything about it. Oh no, that would be a change in routine. A change in routine would break the cycle-- if only for a little bit.
I keep everything to myself; literally. Since I keep everything to myself, things bottle up. These things include emotions and thoughts-- what else would it include? At times, I break. I spill my guts out to whoever may be listening, and that’s where the problems start. Parents get involved, and the cycle is broken. For a while. They think everything is fine, that the cycle is finally gone, that there’s nothing to worry about. They’re wrong. The cycle has started again, if not with the same properties as before.
It’s hard to break routine. Routine is cycle. Cycle is life.
I don’t like talking about my emotions and thoughts. I can’t talk about my emotions and thoughts. I can talk about my emotions and thoughts. The frustration is endless! One minute I have the greatest urge to just spill everything, to get all information out in the open. Then, it’s gone. I’m sitting in a chair in the Guidance Counselor’s office, and I have nothing to say. I’m sitting outside with my parents, and I have nothing to say. I’m sitting in class with my friends, and I have nothing to say.
I follow this cycle, for if I didn’t I would completely fall apart. I have many cycles, but they all come back to include this one. This cycle of keeping things to myself. All others stem from this one, feed off this one, depend on this one.
For example: Something major happens, and I think about it. I continue to think about it, and emotions develop. These thoughts and emotions affect me to a point that alters my life, at least for a little while. Then comes the breaking point, and all rational thought is lost. When rational thought is regained, the process starts over again.
People depend on cycles to complete their lives. If they didn’t, they would feel empty; incomplete. It’s hard to change, and that’s perhaps the one truth that people fail to see.
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Obviously I can't speak for everyone-- this is simply my thought process.
Posted on June 18th, 2009 at 03:04am
