Shouldn't I Be Happy Right Now? I've Found My Prince Or Edward (For Your Twilight Fans)!
I'm really confused right now.
I'm sad, which is really weird because I should be happy.
In a journal I made a long time ago I talked about a guy that thought I was in love with him.
I thought I wasn't because I was already in love with this other guy.
I've always believed that I'd never love two guys at once.
But then I started to get all the familar feelings for this other guy that I have for the guy I'm in love with.
So I was texting him this morning & he shocked me by asking:
"How do you really feel about me?"
I was shocked & I started to really think about it.
Me: "I think I might be in love with you..."
Him: "Really?"
Me: "...Ya."
Him: "I'm in love with you too."
Me: "So... where does that leave us?"
Him: "Idk."
Me: "Now I'm really confused."
Him: "I'm so sorry."
Me: "Its ok you didn't mean to do it."
Him: "Do you wanna go out with me?"
Me: "Idk."
We kept texting though & it came to this:
Him: "Are we together?"
Me: "You tell me."
Him: "Only if you want my angel."
Me: "Only if you want to be my vampire." (long story)
Him: "I really do."
So we are going out but I'm not happy or excited.
I'm sad & scared I think its because I don't feel like I'm good enough for him.
He's wasting his time on me.
Many girls say they want to find their "Edward", "Romeo", ect well I've found him but I feel like he's not mine.
What if he isn't? Maybe he's someone elses?
I'm too young to find my prince charming right? I am, I'm only 15 he may be close to finding his Juliet but that's because he's 18.
This does not sound good does it? 0.o
Besides I've dated older guys before.
I don't know, shouldn't I feel happy?!
Why aren't I happy?!
I'm sad, which is really weird because I should be happy.
In a journal I made a long time ago I talked about a guy that thought I was in love with him.
I thought I wasn't because I was already in love with this other guy.
I've always believed that I'd never love two guys at once.
But then I started to get all the familar feelings for this other guy that I have for the guy I'm in love with.
So I was texting him this morning & he shocked me by asking:
"How do you really feel about me?"
I was shocked & I started to really think about it.
Me: "I think I might be in love with you..."
Him: "Really?"
Me: "...Ya."
Him: "I'm in love with you too."
Me: "So... where does that leave us?"
Him: "Idk."
Me: "Now I'm really confused."
Him: "I'm so sorry."
Me: "Its ok you didn't mean to do it."
Him: "Do you wanna go out with me?"
Me: "Idk."
We kept texting though & it came to this:
Him: "Are we together?"
Me: "You tell me."
Him: "Only if you want my angel."
Me: "Only if you want to be my vampire." (long story)
Him: "I really do."
So we are going out but I'm not happy or excited.
I'm sad & scared I think its because I don't feel like I'm good enough for him.
He's wasting his time on me.
Many girls say they want to find their "Edward", "Romeo", ect well I've found him but I feel like he's not mine.
What if he isn't? Maybe he's someone elses?
I'm too young to find my prince charming right? I am, I'm only 15 he may be close to finding his Juliet but that's because he's 18.
This does not sound good does it? 0.o
Besides I've dated older guys before.
I don't know, shouldn't I feel happy?!
Why aren't I happy?!
Posted on July 4th, 2009 at 02:37am
hey, hey, calm down. you're being a little bit paranoid :P
and maybe now he can be your outlet? like, if you need to rant. and just take it as it goes.
and it might be a lifey. it might not. but you'll never know if you don't let it happen.
take a deep breath and just have fun with it.
there's no point in being a relationship if you're not having fun :)
krin, July 4th, 2009 at 04:40:46am
v yeah I know what you mean.
Thanks.
Neche_Girl8, July 4th, 2009 at 03:09:21am
Well, that's good. Just don't be afraid to tell him he's going too fast. A lot of girls have that problem where they're too afraid to tell the guy no, and sometimes bad things can happen . . . .
Good luck! Best of luck to both of you.
half note., July 4th, 2009 at 03:04:35am
v yeah he might he's understanding like that we already discussed that he's not gona move. Plus he told me to tell him when & if we are moving to fast.
Neche_Girl8, July 4th, 2009 at 03:01:51am
Oh, I gotcha.
You should talk it out with him. He should understand that, you want him to know that you don't want to rush into things. You want to go slow.
Tell him you want to maybe consider more serious relationship topics later. But for right now you just want to have fun, get to know each other even more than you already have . . . All that good stuff.
He should understand that you don't wanna deal with major stuff until later.
half note., July 4th, 2009 at 02:57:31am
Sardonic Grina:
You don't know him 0.o he asked one of his exs to marry him... That was like a long time ago though.
Neche_Girl8, July 4th, 2009 at 02:53:03am
yourpinkdiary: Nope haven't seen him yet but that makes sense.
his opheliac.:
That gets me panicy because what if I'm not diving into this as fast as he is?
Neche_Girl8, July 4th, 2009 at 02:47:16am
Well, what's wrong with that?
That's dedication.
(Lol.)
half note., July 4th, 2009 at 02:45:06am
his opheliac.:
I would be but with him comes a really serious relationship like he wants to switch high schools for me 0.o.
Sardonic Grin:
XD hey I love Twilight & he wants to be a vampire 0.o
Neche_Girl8, July 4th, 2009 at 02:43:32am
Have you actually seen him face to face since? I mean you were only text messaging, maybe that's why... I don't know. I suck at relationship advice.
Anyway, I wouldn't worry too much. You have your whole life ahead of you. Just take it a step at a time. If it's something that's supposed to last a long time, it will, if it's not, well, it wont. Just remember you are only 15 and there's heaps of guys out there.
Your.Pink.Diary, July 4th, 2009 at 02:42:41am
Lol, 'stupid Twilight metaphors.'
I'm sorry. I really am. But she's right. (XD.)
half note., July 4th, 2009 at 02:41:41am
Because your thinking too much about it and using stupid Twilight metaphors to describe it?
Just go with the flow. He is 18, he isn't expecting to marry you tomorrow.
Sardonic Grin, July 4th, 2009 at 02:39:28am
It's okay, I've had feelings like that before, too.
It's totally normal to feel that he is too good for you, or that he belongs with someone else.
Look at it this way; if he was someone else's . . . Would he be with you?
Just have fun! Don't worry about stuff like that. If he's with you, he is meant to be. With. You!
half note., July 4th, 2009 at 02:38:58am