R.I.P Betty
It's funny how life works...in the most godawful, fucked up way...
Yesterday I got robbed in the beach, I was freaking out over my now forever lost cellphone and mp4. Freaking out over mere fucking worthless and meaningless objects that will soon be replaced.
And sudenly today everything changed.
I logged in on msn to talk with my girls, crossing my fingers and hoping this boy I'm growing to adore was online so we could talk and that maybe, just maybe, he would call me baby again.
But things didn't quite turn out that way.
"Betty died, mary" was the first thing that popped on my screen as soon as i got online "She passed away this morning." Never had anything struck me that deeply.
I asked my friend if she was serious, what had happened.
Betty's lungs just up and failed, and just like that she was dead, forever gone. She was just 15 for fucking sake!
I couldn't believe my eyes.
I can't stop thinking, it makes me sick just to know I was so upset over a stupid cellphone while my friend was dying in a fucking hospital bed. It makes no sense, how absolutely ridiculous is that??
It made me think of how unfair this world is.
Elizabeth Chichkova, a sweet beautiful caring girl, that got nothing but smiles in the faces of everyone around her. Why did she deserve such a hard life? So many health problems? Such an early fucking grave???
And the answer is, she didn't deserve any of it. This is just the fucked up way life works.
I wish I had got to know her better, I regret being so far drowned in my own problems that I didn't learn more about that sweet girl.
Unaware of it the world just lost an amazing person, friend, daughter, niece, cousin, grandaughter, classmate; that will never be replaced, nor do we want her to be.
Right now I'm a crying mess, still fighting to get over the shock. I don't believe in God, all that guides me is knowing everything happens for a reason. But one thing I know, at least her suffering, all those endless nights she spent in the hospital, it's all over now.
It hasn't even been 24 hours yet but all i can hope is that in whatever comes after life, wherever she goes, that she gets the peace she deserves and didn't get while alive.
I feel proud to stand here and say I had the chance to meet Elizabeth, my dear Betty.
I'll never forget her, and I can only hope I left nothing but good memories with her.
Rest in peace sweetie, you'll always be in my heart.
Yesterday I got robbed in the beach, I was freaking out over my now forever lost cellphone and mp4. Freaking out over mere fucking worthless and meaningless objects that will soon be replaced.
And sudenly today everything changed.
I logged in on msn to talk with my girls, crossing my fingers and hoping this boy I'm growing to adore was online so we could talk and that maybe, just maybe, he would call me baby again.
But things didn't quite turn out that way.
"Betty died, mary" was the first thing that popped on my screen as soon as i got online "She passed away this morning." Never had anything struck me that deeply.
I asked my friend if she was serious, what had happened.
Betty's lungs just up and failed, and just like that she was dead, forever gone. She was just 15 for fucking sake!
I couldn't believe my eyes.
I can't stop thinking, it makes me sick just to know I was so upset over a stupid cellphone while my friend was dying in a fucking hospital bed. It makes no sense, how absolutely ridiculous is that??
It made me think of how unfair this world is.
Elizabeth Chichkova, a sweet beautiful caring girl, that got nothing but smiles in the faces of everyone around her. Why did she deserve such a hard life? So many health problems? Such an early fucking grave???
And the answer is, she didn't deserve any of it. This is just the fucked up way life works.
I wish I had got to know her better, I regret being so far drowned in my own problems that I didn't learn more about that sweet girl.
Unaware of it the world just lost an amazing person, friend, daughter, niece, cousin, grandaughter, classmate; that will never be replaced, nor do we want her to be.
Right now I'm a crying mess, still fighting to get over the shock. I don't believe in God, all that guides me is knowing everything happens for a reason. But one thing I know, at least her suffering, all those endless nights she spent in the hospital, it's all over now.
It hasn't even been 24 hours yet but all i can hope is that in whatever comes after life, wherever she goes, that she gets the peace she deserves and didn't get while alive.
I feel proud to stand here and say I had the chance to meet Elizabeth, my dear Betty.
I'll never forget her, and I can only hope I left nothing but good memories with her.
Rest in peace sweetie, you'll always be in my heart.
Posted on July 5th, 2009 at 02:05am
Oh my, that's so sad.
D:
Paradoxical Goodbye;, July 5th, 2009 at 04:07:27am
I'm sorry for your lost. I know a girl who died in a car accident in May. She was really amazing person who lost control of her car not far from her house. It was shocking and tragic. She was 18 and supposed to go off to college this fall. Just remember that shes there whenever you need her. She may not physically speak to you but she is there.
almost.there, July 5th, 2009 at 02:13:37am
That's really sad. I hope you're coping ok
Broken_heart101, July 5th, 2009 at 02:07:41am
That's so sad. =(
Jessie in Calalini, July 5th, 2009 at 02:06:08am