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Ok I don't know if I need to vent or if I need advice. Maybe I just want someone to listen or maybe I need this. Whatever the reason may be I am writing this and I hope you are reading it.
My step dad...He always treats me differant because I am not his kid. My two younger half sisters are treated way better than me. He started treating me worse ecspecially when he found out I'm gay. We argue EVERY day. He calls me bitch and alot of other things too. He does not really hit me anymore like he used to. He is trying to force to get a job but I'm not ready for it. Instead I go to online school because after being bullied for years in public school I became severely depressed and was even cutting. He knows this yet he still wants me to do a ton of work around the house while keeping up with schoolwork. And the thing is, no matter what I do its NEVER enough for him.
My mom sometimes agrees with him saying all I do is cause problems but most times she just lets him do it. She knows he is a jerk to me but does nothing about it. She too wants me to get a job. I will but I'm not ready now. She says I will get friends but I won't. Everytime I think someone is nice and a friend they fuck up and turn out to be a loser. I can't trust anyone enough anymore, I have low self esteem, depression, and I'm anti-social. I'm not ready for a job right now. Every time I threaten to leave she gets upset and tries to make me feel guilty by bringing up my little sister that looks up to me and would miss me terribly.
I could go to my grandmas. At my house I feel depressed and like a loser and like cutting but I don't. My stomach always hurts there because of the stress. At my grandmas I am happy and cared for and treated like a person. She knows my stepdad sucks. I just want a place where I can be myself and be happy.
More than anything I would miss my cat. I know it sounds awful that I would miss my cat more than my family but it's true. When I think about leaving him it breaks my heart. When we rescued some cats one night I immediatley grabbed Snuggles and never let him go. I begged to get him. My stepdad said ok and picked out one more cat for himself. I feed him, I named him, he stays with me constantly. He loves me and my family knows that. But they love him too and ay for him and clean his litter box. I don't want to leave him but I doubt they would let me take him.
So what do I do about everything? If I leave it is going to cause ALOT of problems with my family. I don't want to cause trouble. I just want to be me and to be happy. Comment PLEASE
My step dad...He always treats me differant because I am not his kid. My two younger half sisters are treated way better than me. He started treating me worse ecspecially when he found out I'm gay. We argue EVERY day. He calls me bitch and alot of other things too. He does not really hit me anymore like he used to. He is trying to force to get a job but I'm not ready for it. Instead I go to online school because after being bullied for years in public school I became severely depressed and was even cutting. He knows this yet he still wants me to do a ton of work around the house while keeping up with schoolwork. And the thing is, no matter what I do its NEVER enough for him.
My mom sometimes agrees with him saying all I do is cause problems but most times she just lets him do it. She knows he is a jerk to me but does nothing about it. She too wants me to get a job. I will but I'm not ready now. She says I will get friends but I won't. Everytime I think someone is nice and a friend they fuck up and turn out to be a loser. I can't trust anyone enough anymore, I have low self esteem, depression, and I'm anti-social. I'm not ready for a job right now. Every time I threaten to leave she gets upset and tries to make me feel guilty by bringing up my little sister that looks up to me and would miss me terribly.
I could go to my grandmas. At my house I feel depressed and like a loser and like cutting but I don't. My stomach always hurts there because of the stress. At my grandmas I am happy and cared for and treated like a person. She knows my stepdad sucks. I just want a place where I can be myself and be happy.
More than anything I would miss my cat. I know it sounds awful that I would miss my cat more than my family but it's true. When I think about leaving him it breaks my heart. When we rescued some cats one night I immediatley grabbed Snuggles and never let him go. I begged to get him. My stepdad said ok and picked out one more cat for himself. I feed him, I named him, he stays with me constantly. He loves me and my family knows that. But they love him too and ay for him and clean his litter box. I don't want to leave him but I doubt they would let me take him.
So what do I do about everything? If I leave it is going to cause ALOT of problems with my family. I don't want to cause trouble. I just want to be me and to be happy. Comment PLEASE
Posted on July 8th, 2009 at 02:59am
*huggles*
go to your grandmum's!!!! You need to be in an open enviorment where you feel happy, and so far your family isn't making that possible. As for Snuggles, ask your grandmum if you can keep him and if she says yes, i think you have a right to at least ask if not forceabley take Snuggles. Technically if your the one that wanted to keep him in the first place and if you take care of him the most, he is your cat.
please message me, i don't want you to be alone and i pormise to try my very best not to f*ck up! and i'm not asking you to message me outta pity, thats lame, i'm asking because you seem cool and there is no limit to how many friends you can have. i should stop typing before i wirte a whole entry right here.
rose.pricked.lovers, July 8th, 2009 at 03:30:01am
I'm sorry.
-Hug-
Maybe going to your grandma's is the best thing to do.
I know you'll miss your cat, but who's more important-you or him?
Sometimes, to be you and to be happy, you have to cause trouble.
If you are seriously thinking about leaving then maybe you should.
kelly yells love., July 8th, 2009 at 03:06:58am
If your household is really putting that much pressure on you to the point where you can't take it, you might want to consider going to your grandma's house, even if it's only temporary.
Fedex, July 8th, 2009 at 03:06:06am