I've messed things up

Omg so i have messed thuings up big mega time. I went to my sisters to get better, to stop cutting, etc. the first day i'm there i got drunk, almost sleep with my sisters ex, not that i wanted to at all!!!!!! and get sent home. f****** great. I ended up cutting twice, i did so well not cut in like a month. then i cut again this morning. so all together i think that me goin to my sisters did the total oppisit of wat i wanted it to do!!!!!!

To top it off i come home and we are movin. everyone is in a big stress. i dont need this, its gonna make me god damn worse. :'(. i cant eat i'm so stressed out. its drivin me crazy, i just want to walk off and let everyone else get on with it and me come bak wen its all sorted and the only thing i have to do is sort my room out!

and thats another thing! my parents think its childish for me to want my posters up!!!! apperently it looks stupid as well. so wen they was doin stuff the only thing i had took was my ... posters. and i put them up. my dad was really pissed off

sorry its a mega rant ! x