I don't know anymore

I liked JD.
Then Blue liked JD.
And then Blue and JD got together.
And I got really upset.
Then I got over it.
Now they're fighting.
And they pretty much broke up.
Because Blue was being really mean to him because he was somply talking to me on AIM.
And then she said he was too clingy (even though she's so clingy to me).
And then I tried to help JD feel better.
And so did my 17th month younger sister, MJ.\
He was finally feeling better about it and realizing it was Blue who was missing out, not him.
And MJ was talking to Blue.
And Blue said "if you feel so bad for him why don't you go out with him then?"
and Mj told JD.
And JD asked me if he should ask MJ out.
And I told him I felt really weird about it.
And he said "would you rather it be you?"
And I said I don't know.
Even thouogh the real answer was yes.
And I was about to tell him that.
And then he signed off.
And I don't know what to do anymore...