You can look at this if you want, but you'll see the length of it and click the back button in horror.
Don't dig at someone about their own journal aye?
I haven't done one of these in a long while actually. I got too picky about what to write and think too much about if anyone would even read/comment it, but I actually realise how little I care now. I sometimes just get this urge to write what's on my mind and have someone see it at least. It's more satisfying than a diary entry that I know is going to stay unseen, for some reason.
I've started sixth form now, and I love the freedom of it; going around town with friends during free periods, having phones on in class, loud parties at lunchtime in the common room. I'm in Franklin house with Tess. It absolutely sucks that I don't go to school with the rest of my crew of friends anymore. I miss having Tania in my lessons; being cheeky to teachers and playing songs to me on the guitar in the store cupboard in art (we both failed that GCSE for some reason).
There are only six from our previous school, Lavi, who go to my current sixth form, J.O.G. We hang out together because everyone else went to J.O.G for secondary school. Damn Lavi for not having a sixth form. Chris came back from town the other day at lunch time with one of those rape alarms. Charles suggested we all get one and whenever one of us is lost we just set it off. Charles: *points rape alarm to the sky* ''LAVI UNITE!''
I thought it was funny.
I'm going to talk about boys now, because after sixteen years I finally entered that world. I think my subconscious put off doing so for so long because it actually knew what a butt munch of a time I would have once I did. Plus it's all happening at once; boys, they're swooping in on me from every direction. I haven't even done anything different to my appearance. Though cocoa butter is making my skin softer... what a revelation!
Yeah so it's started mid summer I suppose, when I went to a party with Tania. I knew no-one there, and Tania only knew the host. I saw a boy I hadn't seen in years, since he moved schools. I'd known him in primary school and I'd had a huge crush on him for years and he was my first 'kiss' (a peck on the lips in a dare game when I was 10, how depressing...). I was a dork when I was young (still am of course, but I have nicer hair now, which changes everything, obvs). We kissed and he was like ''We've got to meet up some time''. Thought it was dead romantic, but
A couple days later he decided he liked Tania instead.
A few days after I went to another party with Tania, of a guy we'd met at the last party. I was drunk, and moaning into my new friend, Joe's, shoulder about my woes. A guy known by his surname turned up. I'd never officially met him but Tania knew him and most people had heard of him before... he was good friends with that local Bebo fame kid, Jamie (who I've become friends with recently and fancy a little) and I suppose mostly known for varying his hairstyle so much (it was kind of like 'neat' dreadlocks at this point). Tania and I ended up staying round his house for the night, after a series of events. I just wanted to sleep but he kept cuddling me, and then he kissed me and I thought it would be a bit rude to tell him to stop now, because I had kind of given him the impression that I liked him, despite the fact I didn't really. Then I slept in his bed with him, which was a big mistake (no, we didn't do that – not that he didn't try).
But then there was another party, this time with good friends who actually knew, round Tess' house. We were celebrating that American, 4th of July thing, because Tess is American. Elijah got drunk and told me he was in love with me. He went on about it for hours. Elijah has been a good friend for ages and it really surprised me. But I don't feel the same way. He said ''Stef, I can imagine us getting married...I'd come home from work and you'd be like 'I burnt the lasagne' and then we'd laugh...'' and then he serenaded me ''Stefffffiii, is so prettttyyyy, won't you marrrry meee, so you become mrs reeeeeed...''
After he found about the guy I spent the night with (remember, not in that way!) and I told him that I was worried he was spreading rumour's that we slept together (in that way), he texted their mutual friend to find out what he's been saying and they texted back that he only said that we'd had a brilliant time and that he thought I was amazing, which makes me like him a lot more... and Elijah more, for caring so much.
And then there's Nick, who I met a couple nights ago. Nice chap, made me laugh. I fell asleep with my head on his lap. He told Tania he liked me, despite the fact that before Jess left it had seemed they were sort of getting together. But apparently that was all her doing... and he started slagging her off which annoyed me as she is one of my best friends. He left without my number, which made me think he changed his mind until Tania told me he'd had his phone confiscated by the police.
And there's Tom, who Tess and I met when asking for directions, and although he looks like a God, he still kinda seems like he's trying to decide whether he likes me or Tess more. Which is a bit weird for us? Oh, and there's Charles, from the Lavi crew, who is dating a close-ish friend of mine, Laura, but they are having many problems (which I admit is mainly my friend, Laura's fault) and I can't tell if he's flirting with me. Oh and there's Ben, a guy I sit with in my new law class who is cute and hilarious and nice, and the type of guy I'm really into... but It's weird showing too much interest in him when I'm wedged between him and Elijah. me: look how pretty my notes are. Ben: gorgeous *growls* woah what was that? me: I don't understand what just happened.
But the guy I like most of all is Dan. I've known him since I was 13, and he moved to our school from Australia. I got him his first girlfriend when he came (oh, forever the matchmaker... never the matched) and have tried to help him overcome his slight porn obsession. He's one of those guys who seems quiet at first, but you talk to them and they're just... hilarious and so, so nice, and even though he has a sign on his bedroom door that says 'don't enter unless you have big boobs', he is actually very sensitive and considerate and lovely and amazing and... oh he's really good at art! And he told me off when he found out I smoked before (haven't ever since) and he doesn't drink and looks after me when I do. He dressed as Doctor Who for me at my birthday party ;'(
me: you don't know how much this means to me guys!
Jess:group hug!
Dan *in the middle of the hug* psst, George, see if you can find a boob!
I haven't seen him since I started sixth form, and he started college, and the other day on msn he told me he missed me (like BEFORE I'd told him i missed him), and Tania said to invite him to her sleepover thing but in the end he couldn't come and he said he was really sorry and that he really wanted to. I don't know what to make of that =\ but whenever I'm being stupid and kissing guys drunkenly or getting into silly situations with them (though Tania and I have made a pact to stop doing this now) I'm always thinking DanDANdanDaNdanDANDaN... he's all i waaaaaant. Woe, woe, woe.
The end. Glad that's over. I don't think I ever want to talk about boys again.
Here's a pretty picture of London.
and a view from my school bus.
*Dan'sFacebookStatusJustChangedToInaRelationship*
Cue Bum note.
I haven't done one of these in a long while actually. I got too picky about what to write and think too much about if anyone would even read/comment it, but I actually realise how little I care now. I sometimes just get this urge to write what's on my mind and have someone see it at least. It's more satisfying than a diary entry that I know is going to stay unseen, for some reason.
I've started sixth form now, and I love the freedom of it; going around town with friends during free periods, having phones on in class, loud parties at lunchtime in the common room. I'm in Franklin house with Tess. It absolutely sucks that I don't go to school with the rest of my crew of friends anymore. I miss having Tania in my lessons; being cheeky to teachers and playing songs to me on the guitar in the store cupboard in art (we both failed that GCSE for some reason).
There are only six from our previous school, Lavi, who go to my current sixth form, J.O.G. We hang out together because everyone else went to J.O.G for secondary school. Damn Lavi for not having a sixth form. Chris came back from town the other day at lunch time with one of those rape alarms. Charles suggested we all get one and whenever one of us is lost we just set it off. Charles: *points rape alarm to the sky* ''LAVI UNITE!''
I thought it was funny.
I'm going to talk about boys now, because after sixteen years I finally entered that world. I think my subconscious put off doing so for so long because it actually knew what a butt munch of a time I would have once I did. Plus it's all happening at once; boys, they're swooping in on me from every direction. I haven't even done anything different to my appearance. Though cocoa butter is making my skin softer... what a revelation!
Yeah so it's started mid summer I suppose, when I went to a party with Tania. I knew no-one there, and Tania only knew the host. I saw a boy I hadn't seen in years, since he moved schools. I'd known him in primary school and I'd had a huge crush on him for years and he was my first 'kiss' (a peck on the lips in a dare game when I was 10, how depressing...). I was a dork when I was young (still am of course, but I have nicer hair now, which changes everything, obvs). We kissed and he was like ''We've got to meet up some time''. Thought it was dead romantic, but
A couple days later he decided he liked Tania instead.
A few days after I went to another party with Tania, of a guy we'd met at the last party. I was drunk, and moaning into my new friend, Joe's, shoulder about my woes. A guy known by his surname turned up. I'd never officially met him but Tania knew him and most people had heard of him before... he was good friends with that local Bebo fame kid, Jamie (who I've become friends with recently and fancy a little) and I suppose mostly known for varying his hairstyle so much (it was kind of like 'neat' dreadlocks at this point). Tania and I ended up staying round his house for the night, after a series of events. I just wanted to sleep but he kept cuddling me, and then he kissed me and I thought it would be a bit rude to tell him to stop now, because I had kind of given him the impression that I liked him, despite the fact I didn't really. Then I slept in his bed with him, which was a big mistake (no, we didn't do that – not that he didn't try).
But then there was another party, this time with good friends who actually knew, round Tess' house. We were celebrating that American, 4th of July thing, because Tess is American. Elijah got drunk and told me he was in love with me. He went on about it for hours. Elijah has been a good friend for ages and it really surprised me. But I don't feel the same way. He said ''Stef, I can imagine us getting married...I'd come home from work and you'd be like 'I burnt the lasagne' and then we'd laugh...'' and then he serenaded me ''Stefffffiii, is so prettttyyyy, won't you marrrry meee, so you become mrs reeeeeed...''
After he found about the guy I spent the night with (remember, not in that way!) and I told him that I was worried he was spreading rumour's that we slept together (in that way), he texted their mutual friend to find out what he's been saying and they texted back that he only said that we'd had a brilliant time and that he thought I was amazing, which makes me like him a lot more... and Elijah more, for caring so much.
And then there's Nick, who I met a couple nights ago. Nice chap, made me laugh. I fell asleep with my head on his lap. He told Tania he liked me, despite the fact that before Jess left it had seemed they were sort of getting together. But apparently that was all her doing... and he started slagging her off which annoyed me as she is one of my best friends. He left without my number, which made me think he changed his mind until Tania told me he'd had his phone confiscated by the police.
And there's Tom, who Tess and I met when asking for directions, and although he looks like a God, he still kinda seems like he's trying to decide whether he likes me or Tess more. Which is a bit weird for us? Oh, and there's Charles, from the Lavi crew, who is dating a close-ish friend of mine, Laura, but they are having many problems (which I admit is mainly my friend, Laura's fault) and I can't tell if he's flirting with me. Oh and there's Ben, a guy I sit with in my new law class who is cute and hilarious and nice, and the type of guy I'm really into... but It's weird showing too much interest in him when I'm wedged between him and Elijah. me: look how pretty my notes are. Ben: gorgeous *growls* woah what was that? me: I don't understand what just happened.
But the guy I like most of all is Dan. I've known him since I was 13, and he moved to our school from Australia. I got him his first girlfriend when he came (oh, forever the matchmaker... never the matched) and have tried to help him overcome his slight porn obsession. He's one of those guys who seems quiet at first, but you talk to them and they're just... hilarious and so, so nice, and even though he has a sign on his bedroom door that says 'don't enter unless you have big boobs', he is actually very sensitive and considerate and lovely and amazing and... oh he's really good at art! And he told me off when he found out I smoked before (haven't ever since) and he doesn't drink and looks after me when I do. He dressed as Doctor Who for me at my birthday party ;'(
me: you don't know how much this means to me guys!
Jess:group hug!
Dan *in the middle of the hug* psst, George, see if you can find a boob!
I haven't seen him since I started sixth form, and he started college, and the other day on msn he told me he missed me (like BEFORE I'd told him i missed him), and Tania said to invite him to her sleepover thing but in the end he couldn't come and he said he was really sorry and that he really wanted to. I don't know what to make of that =\ but whenever I'm being stupid and kissing guys drunkenly or getting into silly situations with them (though Tania and I have made a pact to stop doing this now) I'm always thinking DanDANdanDaNdanDANDaN... he's all i waaaaaant. Woe, woe, woe.
The end. Glad that's over. I don't think I ever want to talk about boys again.
Here's a pretty picture of London.
and a view from my school bus.
*Dan'sFacebookStatusJustChangedToInaRelationship*
Cue Bum note.
Posted on September 21st, 2009 at 12:10am
I thnk that was what the picture was ..I'm not quite sure..lol
A.Broken.Mess, September 21st, 2009 at 12:35:33am
that's quite cool:)
yeah i posted them because my home and London are my two favorite places
although
I love Africa
TheBestFrigginShoes, September 21st, 2009 at 12:30:58am
I was watching a youtube video made by this guy named craig yesterday. He showed pictures of this, I think. it was on a field trip he said..
Anyways London is very pretty.
A.Broken.Mess, September 21st, 2009 at 12:28:36am
lol i didnt take the photo, i probably should have mentioned.
it's just the fields i pass on my way and i think its pretty.
the photo's from like Wiltshirephotgraphy.com or something.
TheBestFrigginShoes, September 21st, 2009 at 12:17:57am
You do know that there is a copyright statement on the picture from your school bus,.. or? If it actually is the view-- Pretty! o.O I miss just seeing open fields,.. **Sigh** I want to go back to Germany. =(
I admit that I only read like a fourth of your Journal. Sorry.
Kvieta Vindi, September 21st, 2009 at 12:16:32am