whoa O_O

ok, I know no one reads these but I don't care, I feel like talking :]

ok, first off..
I know I haven't done any poems in a LONG time but I have a good reason...
1. School
2. Procrastination
3. Girlfriend

I've been in school for about 3 weeks now, and there is so much going on in my head, I don't have time to like, sit down and write. Also, I've been spending alot of time with my girlfriend, which means I'm not at home t write anything down.
I used to carry my poem book with me in case I had any ideas, but people would be like,
"Why are you carrying that book?"
"let me read your poems!"
and I know how that would turn out >.<
the poems I write now are so different from the ones I used to write.
My poems were all happy and junk, and now, well, things of happened and I don't feel totally happy anymore :/
but you know I'm starting to feel better about myself :]


oh and lastly, its been like..a month and 5 days since I've self harmed/injured myself, I know that isn't long, but honestly, thats a record for me.