Say Hello to the World..

I've lost what I was writing. Lack of focus? Lack of sleep? Who knows. Its like a scratch or scab, you pick at until you bleed. Bleeding. Blood. An every day occurance? Do you walk onto the bus and see and old woman with her heart cut out, a young lady with her throat slit, or a child with no eyes of its own? Do you pause to throw up your breakfast or did you, like me and everyone else, skip the most important meal of the day. Do you understand? You see it? No. No. No. I didn't think so. When time runs away do you freeze or run after it? I'de give anything for a moment of peace. But do I really want it? Or will it be the familiar insanity that pulls me back. Do I get to choose? Or does someone that doesn't know me choose for me? Do they not know me because they don't want to? Or do I just lie and not let them? Is it all my fault? All along. Everything. If I question everything, will I get the answers to anything? Or will I spend my whole life searching for a moment in time.Is this the end or the start? Maybe its the middle. I think that would be nice. Is the street light outside my window broken? Or am I just blind? Who am I? I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually. But will I like what I find? Will I change when I find it? YOu;ve got no answers, I've got no time. I'm tired of the act. Nice try though. Remember to breathe, I know this is a shock. You never knew me. You knew what I let you see. Does that make sense. No. Okay. It doesn't have to. Define love. Define hate. Neither is apathy, yet thats the easiest thing to feel. Is it okay that I don't know the meaning behind my own words. Its oka with me, cause I know you don't either.


Does anyone out there get it?