You make me think, What if?

I just posted a poem, written by this boy who likes me, Dawid. He wrote it about me. Well, anwyays. He really likes me, I guess. He has since about July or June. He's really funny, nice and he's just amazing to be around. I sware there's never been a silent moment between us. And most people think we're dating, or would be a good couple. But, you see. I can't say that. And, he's said he's liked so many girls. Sometimes more than two at a time. He's always "loved" this girl Kassandra. And he's stopped talking about her but I'm almost sure he's in love with her. But yet, he wrote that poem about me. It's sweet I guess. And after I read it, he told me he's losing all hope he's ever had that I'd ever fall for him. The poem will be found by looking at, http://poem.mibba.com/127986/Lover-By-Dawid.

I almost feel guilty. Because, he says he likes me and everything. I sometimes think I'm leading him on.. I haven't done anything with him. I haven't told him I've liked him. But I still hang out with him, invite him places and talk to him endlessly. I used to really like him and I'm not sure if it was more of a re-bound thing or what. But I'm almost sure I'm over it. But, it's like, I used to wonder, "What if.." Like, what if I would have given him the chance? What if I would have dated him? What if? I almost feel guilty. Because I just wish he'd hold on a little longer, and maybe if when I become single I'd give him that chance. And that's so selfish. That makes me feel guilty; Stupid; Mean; Bitchy. Everything I've ever denied being. And now, because of this one boy, I'm questioning myself. Do I really like attention? Do I even give a crap about others? What's honestly wrong with me? Ugh.

Maybe this boy deserves a chance. Maybe he's not so bad. Maybe, I'm just a selfish bitch who strives attention.