Real and Raw

For the past couple of weeks I’ve been all about LIFE and LIVING and LOVING. I’m not entirely sure what brought this on; maybe it was talking to a suicidal person…trying to convince them life is worth living.

There is so much to do, to see, to feel. Why would you not want to live? Sure things are going to hurt and you wont know how to continue or you wont want to feel the pain but as Dirk Mai says “It’s all going to be okay in the end. Fuck the dumb shit.” You are beautiful, strong and independent; you are going to make it through.

I wish everybody can be in this mood, it’s wonderful. I’m feeling positive and I’m believing in myself. I’m thinking, “I can do anything and I will. No one can stop me.” I’m going to do what’s best for me and what makes me happy.

I can’t wait for new experiences, I can’t wait to feel new things. There’s so many emotions someone can feel and people always just say “they’re fine, okay”. We’re happy, sad, angry, frustrated, irritated. How many people say they are fantastic when you ask how they are? Not much and if they do its sarcasm. Why aren’t humans loving life? Life is so worth it and much fun! Why not make the most of it? Life is short, live it and have fun.

Even though I know some experiences will hurt me, I’m ready for it. I want it to be raw and real. So real and raw that I have to think, really think. I want it to make an impact on my life; good or bad. If its good, awesome. If it’s bad I will learn from it.

Why is there pain in our lives? Many people have asked why God puts us through pain and its because he wants us to LEARN. It hurts, of course it hurts, but just think of how many things you could learn about yourself! Don’t you want to grow as a human? Pain shows the truth, it screams it. You learn from the truth, don’t you? Why not take that pain and turn it around? Turn it into something wonderful and new, however you can.

“I wrote the gospel on giving up,” I used to love that line; it’s a fall out boy lyric for everyone who doesn’t recognize it. It’s a good lyric, don’t get me wrong it’s just that I don’t want to write the gospel on giving up. I don’t want to quit! I want to succeed; I want to try. I don’t want to see a task ahead of me that I know is going to hard and give up. I want to at least try, no matter how challenging or painful. I’m ready to try.

I’m ready to be in pain, I’m ready to overcome said pain, I’m ready to learn, I’m ready to try; I’m ready to live. I may be 16 years late but its better late than never.

So what do I have to say to life? Bring it cause I’m ready.