Hey Guys

I am practicing my spelling words!! How fun. but I am going to try to fit as many in this journal as I can without sounding to tawdry. see there I go ;3

but anyway I am having a hard time with my family. Yesterday they kept calling me a B**** and it really upset me a lot. I almost felt like one. I had to be crying for an hour before I was able to calm myself down. But thank god for Andy I was able to calm down faster and not do more damage then I did already. I subterfuge it from them what I did. so they won't know..but I didn't from Andy and Andy got upset and that made it worst. Then they just kept yelling and yelling it really hurt.
I know by the time I went to bed last night I had the the biggest wistful for Andy. I missed her SO much it wasn't even funny. Then I fell asleep and my dad came in and yelled at me some more so I sent her a text message saying I just wanted to die. Yes I was that upset and that just made her more upset. I guess in a way last night I was full of furor too but more tears fell down then fists. I just wish that for a little while that day my mom would of came in there and told me it was OK. I mean I was crying so hard.

By today rolling around I felt sad but better. I explained to Andy why I sent her that, but I know it upset her. I know the whole thing upset her being I told her that. I just hate to end up pushing her away or her pushing me away because of something I said. She is so affable and she is mine and I love her SO much.

Well I got to go. Thanks for reading if you did..
Bye
Tiffany