It always feels like

there's never enough time in a day.

i can't seem to finish half the things i start and it hurts me bad. Once I get over this cold, I'm driving back down into school and recording. My last day of junior year is December 11. :] so happy. I'll have graduated by this March/April. In May; I'm heading to Hell City in Ohio and then afterwards is the start of the SOCIALIZM tour. :]

i hate being sick because time always feels like it's moving so slow. I hate that feeling; that life is passing you by and you're missing out. I hate being left out of an inside joke, especially if it appears to be so "omgz" funny. I hate when my closest friends have closer friends and don't even think of me as much of a friend anymore. ugh..

i can't wait til this all blows over.

meanwhile;

the girl i've always thought of as a little sister is being fucked by a guy five years older than her. that gets to me. not just because it's illegal- but because i thought she was smarter than that. don't get me wrong; i like smoking pot and getting wasted too, but i would never dream of giving myself to some guy whose got a lot less life than me. not to mention; from a psychological stand point, i doubt she really, truely, honestly, with all of her heart; loves him. I think she's still trying to fill in all of the holes left by her abandonment issues.

and while "buck sgt" is an outdated term; the rank of "buck sgt" 9though they are not referred to as such) STILL EXISTS! so suck my dick, foy!

what else besides that bull which has been weighing on my chest?

jackie really really is getting annoyed with harry. while this does a lot for me (i hate that guy) i'm starting to notice a pattern here. she got annoyed with avery, and just before she dumped him; his cousin killed himself. she waited til those emotions boiled over; and then let him down easy. now she's getting annoyed with harry, was about to break it off then his grandfather passed away. good lord jacklyn, you're bad luck! you kill people! :[ anyhow, she's waiting til he gets over it (at least a little) so she can move on. i don't understand why she even agreed to date him; she didn't like him to begin with.

ahhh why are girls so boy crazy? i'm a girl; i'm not boy crazy. i'm not falling in love with the first guy with pays me the least bit of attention- or chasing the first guy who agrees that he adores me. i don't remember ever being that way! what is wrong with women today? don't you guys realize that you don't need any man to keep you happy? or to make you feel wanted, or safe? you just need yourself! and to love yourself, completely; and believe in yourself, and take care of yourself. I don't care if you're obese, ugly, and have six kids. You are number one! godd...

i think my ranting is over...

xxxooo