& The World Spins Madly On

my friend nicole's dad had died on tuesday, and today was his wake. so i went to that with our other friend alyssa. nicole seems okay, but i wonder if that's just an act. if it isn't then she's a much stronger person than i could ever be. i cry just thinking about how her and her family must feel. i couldn't imagine losing someone so close to me, that i go from seeing every day to having to accept that he won't be coming home. i'm trying to help her any way i can, but i've never really had someone i know so well lose someone and i don''t always know what to say. it sucks that i had to meet her family under these circumstances.. i had no idea what to say to her mom, other than having to say "nice to meet you" and "i'm sorry for your loss" at the same time. it shouldn't have happened to this family. nicole's a good person and i'm sure her dad was too, and none of them deserve this pain. especially since it was so unexpected.

i had to get all this out because i didn't tell my parents that i went to the wake, because i knew they wouldn't have let me.


RIP James R. Card
1956 - 2009