Seriously! Ugh, why is sex such a big deal? I mean really, why?
I've been friends with this guy since our senior year of high school, so I guess that's... about three years. Anyway, he's now in the Marines and he's in California right now. He'll be back on the 21st of this month. We've been talking a lot lately and he really likes me and I kind of like him; let me repeat that kind of. He really wants to see me when he gets back because a week and a half after he's leaving for Afghanistan for seven months. Of course, I told him I would hang out with him but lately he's been talking about doing "stuff" when he gets back. I've tried to tell him that I don't want to do anything with anyone I wasn't in a relationship with. & I'm not asking him to be with me either, I just want him to respect that, y'know? I mean he has but he just talks about it a lot and he thinks that I'm being too paranoid about sex. I think it's because back in HS we ALMOST had sex, but I stopped because I was a virgin and I still am. I just can't see myself losing it to just anyone, y'know? I wish he would understand that because he's a nice guy but sex is ALWAYS on his mind. He wanted to send me pictures of his junk & he wanted "sexy pictures" of me. Of course I said no.
I just wish everything didn't have to based on sex. He keeps saying that he's not just any random guy and that if we did it, he would be making love to me. Ugh, doesn't he understand you can't make love unless you're actually in it? I mean, I have nothing against people who just want to have sex but I don't want that for myself, do you know what I mean?
I feel really bad because he keeps mentioned things like "I'm going to be gone in Afghanistan for seven months" and I think he's trying to make me feel guilty. I don't know what to do, the way he talks about sex and stuff makes me not want to even hang out with him when he gets here.
Advice? I'd greatly appreciate it. Thank you, mibbians! Sorry for the long novel. :)
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