I just need to rant...or some advice. hah. [Follow up to my last journal]
I never understood why people couldn't just tell their bfs/gfs how they feel.
Like, I understood, but I thought you should just go for it, or something like that...
But, egh. Now that I'm there.
I just kind of want to jump off a cliff.
But, I live in Florida, so I'm a little fucked on that one.
I feel just so pathetic right now.
Meh.
It's like, a fucked up version of Billie Joe and Adrienne's story.
[Hahaha. I make Green Day references when I have problems.]
But, yeah.
I want to run into a tree about fifty times.
Egh.
I can't eat.
I can't cry, so my throat hurts.
Okay, I hate talking about cutting on the internet.
I only talk about how much I am against it.
But, this is harder than I thought.
For about three months I've been really good, and really happy.
But for some reason, right now I'm feeling insane.
And it's weird because I was the one who wrote this.
But, God.
This is just.
Mehhh.
>.<
Egh.
I know if you hit rock bottom, then all things can do is get better.
But, I'm just stuck.
And I have to handle school tomorrow, too.
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Like, I understood, but I thought you should just go for it, or something like that...
But, egh. Now that I'm there.
I just kind of want to jump off a cliff.
But, I live in Florida, so I'm a little fucked on that one.
I feel just so pathetic right now.
Meh.
It's like, a fucked up version of Billie Joe and Adrienne's story.
[Hahaha. I make Green Day references when I have problems.]
But, yeah.
I want to run into a tree about fifty times.
Egh.
I can't eat.
I can't cry, so my throat hurts.
Okay, I hate talking about cutting on the internet.
I only talk about how much I am against it.
But, this is harder than I thought.
For about three months I've been really good, and really happy.
But for some reason, right now I'm feeling insane.
And it's weird because I was the one who wrote this.
But, God.
This is just.
Mehhh.
>.<
Egh.
I know if you hit rock bottom, then all things can do is get better.
But, I'm just stuck.
And I have to handle school tomorrow, too.
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Posted on September 24th, 2007 at 03:35am
Sometimes, you need the sadness, so you can bounce back up again.
yoghurt., September 24th, 2007 at 06:14:08am
It's all right to cry, crying gets the sad out of you.
Eyeliner Queen, September 24th, 2007 at 04:53:12am
much better
Mrs. Whirly, September 24th, 2007 at 04:04:06am
Theres nothing wrong with being down sometimes... I mean you cant always been up all the time, its impossible. But it sounds like youre making yourself more down thinking youre wrong for feeling bad. You're allowed to feel bad.
Things will get better.
mibbba, September 24th, 2007 at 03:44:14am