I did it. I kicked the self-hate completely out.
I went over on his myspace, and there was a picture of him and girl kissing.
So, I ran around my room saying 'fuck' over and over again. Then I went to take a shower and I kept saying 'fuck' and then 'Oh my God' and then I started to cry a little bit.
But, then I thought started talking to myself,
and I told myself that it was going to be okay,
and yada yada.
And then I realized,
I fucking did it.
I didn't sob and slash my wrists.
I picked myself up off the floor and dusted myself off and moved on.
And I kicked the little voice out and told him to go fuck himself.
I've always said if he's happy than I'm happy.
And I was fucking right.
I can't stop smiling.
Seriously.
I am so proud of myself.
I am damn proud of myself.
I just can't believe I did it.
I can't believe that I beat everything I never thought I would.
I'm okay.
I'm okay.
Me, Katy Myerson, the lowest of the fucking low,
is finally happy.
She's finally strong, confident, and happy again.
Dude.
DUDE.
:DDDDD
:]
(:
=D
sfduisfdsfdsfdsfd
DAMN!
XD
I'm so weird.
But I am so fucking awesome.
Seriously.
I fucking did it.
Bahaha.
So, I ran around my room saying 'fuck' over and over again. Then I went to take a shower and I kept saying 'fuck' and then 'Oh my God' and then I started to cry a little bit.
But, then I thought started talking to myself,
and I told myself that it was going to be okay,
and yada yada.
And then I realized,
I fucking did it.
I didn't sob and slash my wrists.
I picked myself up off the floor and dusted myself off and moved on.
And I kicked the little voice out and told him to go fuck himself.
I've always said if he's happy than I'm happy.
And I was fucking right.
I can't stop smiling.
Seriously.
I am so proud of myself.
I am damn proud of myself.
I just can't believe I did it.
I can't believe that I beat everything I never thought I would.
I'm okay.
I'm okay.
Me, Katy Myerson, the lowest of the fucking low,
is finally happy.
She's finally strong, confident, and happy again.
Dude.
DUDE.
:DDDDD
:]
(:
=D
sfduisfdsfdsfdsfd
DAMN!
XD
I'm so weird.
But I am so fucking awesome.
Seriously.
I fucking did it.
Bahaha.
Posted on October 21st, 2007 at 02:24pm
Congrats To You!!!
xxdiabloslayerxx, October 30th, 2007 at 10:20:52pm
GOOD FOR YOU!
-high five-
im proud of you.
wish i could do that.
Miss Mayhem, October 22nd, 2007 at 01:19:14am
Congratulations to you,
congratulations to you,
congratulaaaaatioooooons dear Kaaaaty,
congratulations to you!
waitingforsomething, October 21st, 2007 at 11:40:39pm
Great job. :]
I'm happy for you.
nicole; sock ownage., October 21st, 2007 at 09:28:32pm
hey, well done!!
you shoud be proud of yourself. it takes courage to do that :)
i only got out of cutting cuz i scared myself sh*tless last time.
i'm still being haunted by it, and that was in March
oh well, i'll get over it son, i hope
*applauds you*
Laces For Hanging., October 21st, 2007 at 04:51:38pm
good job baby!!!
Bygeera, October 21st, 2007 at 03:28:36pm
*hugs*
YAY
good job.
god I wish I was that strong
Green.Day1333, October 21st, 2007 at 02:29:00pm