The IV Room your Hospital Bed

This sucks ever feel like you want something or someone. However you can't have them because of something so simple. Yet your mind complicates it? That is exactly how I feel and I feel horrible. I want that person but, I can't have them no. If they where ever ti find out. They would pity me and that would truly I don't know I guess in a way kill me. I have gone through a lot. So much when i try to explain my emotions to people i try to make them sound harmless when in reality there so big and hurt. I am scared to be hurt by people. The ones you care about so deeply that end up back stabbing you.