Really Not Okay

He’s gone, I don't know if I’ll ever see him again.

He left without knowing my true feelings towards him. God how I wish told him, then maybe, just maybe I won't feeling like this.

I feel like shit! I cry every night, all because of him. I wanted him to know, hell yeah I did. But I was a fucking coward; I can’t say it in front of him. How much i love him. And this is what I get, I feel so depressed! I miss him so much. I miss the way he would irritate me just for the sake of pissing me off, the way we would talk for hours.

I missed the chance to tell him everything, I missed it. And damn how much I regret it!

I won't get over this, I know I won't. Will I ever be okay again? A lot of people don't notice this, because I’m good at faking things. Hell yea I’m. I can smile like I have no problem. Nobody really notices me so yeah, it’s easy. I truly love him, now I can’t even see him and it’s my fucking fault. Wherever he is now, I wish him luck, I’ll always love him, I don’t know if I will be over him but for now, I will feel this pain every fucking day and hope no one notices. Life goes on for me, I’ll just smile my way through this, like I always do.