My life since November has changed alot

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Warning: This might be a little long but please read.

Okay, I'm a 15 sophmore in high school. One of the main things in high school to mostly everyone, but not all, is fitting in. I used to not care at all and din my own thing and was very happy with it. Of corse people made fun of us for it, but we just flipped them off and went on our way. That's how we should all do it, so we don't have drama and fights. Well, there's this thing in life called love and its been fucking with me lately...Excues my french. But, i have no idea what's wrong with me. Okay let's start with Nick, the football player...

I have a school where you have gym and Bio next to each other. And 7th period I have gym then 8th Bio, it's all for lab day reasons. But anyway not important, you have the people from gym in your bio as well. Dumb i know, but anyway there's this lovely boy Nick. He was funny, good lookin and well sweet...Or so i thought. This was my first high school crush since freshman year. He took ym heart and swept me away, yawn. He fooled around with me, joked with me and made me feel like he liked me. Then the day came. I told him I liked him for him and not because I thought he was cute. The letter was actaully posted as a story in my stories is your interested. Anyway, I told him adn he ignroes me for two days. So, I'm like fine I get it you don't like me back...Here's the hard part. He starts flirting with one girl I can't stand...It broke my heart to him and her togther.

Then it's like a movie! I get on the bus all heart broken and none of my friends were on the bus that day. It was rainy and cold and I looked across the row and see this boy. He looks at me and smiles and looks down at his phone. Suddenly I feel okay about Nick not liking me! I'm in lala land and over the coarse of 3 weeks this boy i find out is named Kevin. He's also in my cooking class. Sounds good right? Wrong! After one time talking to him he decieds never to again...

So, I've been sad and depressed, not to mention alone for a week or two. All my friends were up in my face about there boyfriends and how they're spending the holilday together and I'm like oh thanks guys. Then my best friend, Robbie..hm no help really. He means well but he's so wrapped up in his boyfriend that he doesn't have time for me anymore =(

So yesterday I was sitting at home when an old friend Scott messages me talking to me. I talk to him and he tells he's depressed becuase he's alone. I say me too...Now my heart is at it again!

I don't know what to do! I'm lost and breaking in the process...Can someone please help me. I don't know if I should try it out with Scott..or will he hurt me too?

XOXO
Amanda