Wake the hell up.
Yup.
It's happened.
I'm finally all better.
Finally.
At least I say I am.
I hope I'm not lying to myself.
Never again shall I bring any sharp objects to my skin to draw blood.
Never.
Never again shall I swallow another pill.
Never.
So, yes. I'm all better.
I hope.
I don't need to lie to myself.
Not again.
I made this journal, not to brag about how I used to cut. Or to brag about how I'm going to stop and be so "strong" and "powerful".
No, this is a promise.
A promise to myself.
If I ever scar my skin again, or choke another pill.
I'll look back, see this, and cry slowly to myself.
I hope that doesn't have to happen.
But, I'm pretty sure it will.
So, don't worry about me.
Seriously.
I've decided that I'm okay now.
I just needed to let you know.
It's happened.
I'm finally all better.
Finally.
At least I say I am.
I hope I'm not lying to myself.
Never again shall I bring any sharp objects to my skin to draw blood.
Never.
Never again shall I swallow another pill.
Never.
So, yes. I'm all better.
I hope.
I don't need to lie to myself.
Not again.
I made this journal, not to brag about how I used to cut. Or to brag about how I'm going to stop and be so "strong" and "powerful".
No, this is a promise.
A promise to myself.
If I ever scar my skin again, or choke another pill.
I'll look back, see this, and cry slowly to myself.
I hope that doesn't have to happen.
But, I'm pretty sure it will.
So, don't worry about me.
Seriously.
I've decided that I'm okay now.
I just needed to let you know.
Posted on December 21st, 2007 at 03:39am
danielle i agree with you with that while comment
All Dolled Up, January 13th, 2008 at 05:50:43pm
heyy i love ya toooooooooooooooo
if u ever need someone to talk to call me and i promise to be on more
im sorry ive been kinda distant from the computer (i seriously need to be on more)
Stepha Miserie, December 23rd, 2007 at 05:08:29am
I love you and I'm gald. That's all I can say because I'm not very good with words.
Chadam, December 21st, 2007 at 10:11:59am
That Is Good.
But I Know From Experience.
It IS NOT easy.
So Try Very Hard ok?
Ninja Bitch, December 21st, 2007 at 07:26:07am
[size=80]*attacks*
Arianna, you scared me.
Like, seriously, I was crying, because you're one of the last people I EVER want to lose. I've seriously never had a true friend that didn't abandon me once we grew apart, or stopped having similiar interest.
Like, seriously, I was so worried that you would go to far or something and you'd wind up dead and I'd wind up... gah, I shall stop.
I got so afraid I had to write a letter to James about it O___O
I love you and Steph to death.
So, yeah, this just made my day.
^_____^
<3
I shall tell you a story;
One day a girl named Pansie and her BFF Tragik saw Cobra Starship at VV.
They met Ryland, and their dad called them in the middle of that.
He liked their necklaces.
Then they met Alex.
They stole candy from him
And taught him the definition of P00NZ.
Then they met Gabe.
He loved their giraffe.
He thought they were hardcore.
He also was upset because Tragik's camara was full.
But Tragik fixed it.
They had a great day.
But Tragik *facepalm* *sigh* left her CD there.
But Pansie knows she will meet them again at RRRGL and get it signed.
I love you.
And I'm proud of you.
And I'm so happy for you that I'm like shaking.
Because you are the greatest and bravest person I know.
And I'm sorry if I kinda annoyed you with all the "are you okay?", "please, tell me you're alright." & "I'm worried about you."
I just felt scared.
And now I feel happy.
And, yeah.
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villain., December 21st, 2007 at 05:47:41am
you have a lot to be proud of.
Mankind's Last Hope, December 21st, 2007 at 04:02:06am