Okay, hey everyone! It's really nice of you to come and read this!
Well, the past fewday months, one of my relatives has gotten depressed. Since when, and why? Well... If you haven't read my profile, then I'll say it here(read my profile,then read here)Well, in January 2007, my father (in that time, he was 40), decided he wanted to do something with his life. I was happy for him, duh! And supported him with wanted to go tocollege. My mom and my sister also did, which he found great, he went January 1. But we didn't know what was coming, at all!
The dilemma was, that the college was 3 hours away, in another town, or more likely, a city. But he still wanted to take that crazy challenge! (in that city, I also have relatives there.) So, we would visit him at his apartment, close to college. I remember visiting him...thinking the bed was a safe place to sit on. Then came along June, and things peeked out from his head. Like: On 'face book', he was getting weird gifts(kisses, hugs and crap like that) and my mom was hyperventilating, it was another woman! Then, out of nowhere, my mom gets a call and poof! He tells her that he's been cheating. I fucking cried, I had the right to cry, right? I remember getting nightmares that I'd suicided, but I didn't tell anyone.
All my friends drifted away from me, and I was all alone. I'd stick in my room and listen to my favorite bands all day, all night, not even blinking. I was in this 'thinking phase' my counselor likes to call it. I find it rather annoying, anyway. She got back with him, and that set a nerve. I was fucking pissed! And then he cheated on her, again. And me and my sister were going through hell and back, hell and back. My mother was on the phone constantly, never having time with us.
And then, she went back with him, and then he came here, to where we live (he 'quit' college.) but he got called back to go finish it. And we didn't know he was with 'her'. I couldn't take it anymore and moved out my new roommate, Sara(same age as me, we've been best friends since birth, and I'm not kidding). I was already in college; it was hard.
And then, one night, my dad left my mom and sister, and my mom called friends and more friends. Making my sister feel left out more than ever.
So yeah, now its January 2008, time for a new year, and it just got worse
My mother is fucking depressed and nothing will make her happy for a week or two. Not even Mr. Bean or stupid disney movies! She got drunk last week-end, and it hurt me to see her so drunk and fucked up like that. The sadest part is, she weights less then me, she smokes more than an smoke-addict and is always negative about herself and worried like shit. I'm mad as hell, why can't she just stop the whining, bitching, ignoring and all? Ugh!
Any advice, homies?
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