No one said it would be easy....
I knew from the start it wasn't going to be easy to stop hating how I look and to stop obsessing over my weight and my figure, but I'm on a real downer about it tonight. Just seeing my friends and noticing how much prettier they are than me is a real turn off.
And they all seem to have someone. I have no one. And I'm always the single one. I'm sick of it tbh. I want someone. I used to think online dating was stupid, but not so much anymore. You can find that special someone anywhere, so I'm open to anything... But everyone seems to like my friends more than they like me. *sigh*
I'm not going to go back to how I used to be, I'm just feeling pretty shit about things the now. It would help if I could get on the chatroom, but I still can't, not that anyone seems to care, as no one's talking to me on here anymore, unless I go into the chatroom.
It's gonna be a rough journey till I start to become happier with being me, but it's something I really need to do. It's just pretty hard atm.
So yeah, tears are coming on... I'm gonna go.
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xxxxxx
And they all seem to have someone. I have no one. And I'm always the single one. I'm sick of it tbh. I want someone. I used to think online dating was stupid, but not so much anymore. You can find that special someone anywhere, so I'm open to anything... But everyone seems to like my friends more than they like me. *sigh*
I'm not going to go back to how I used to be, I'm just feeling pretty shit about things the now. It would help if I could get on the chatroom, but I still can't, not that anyone seems to care, as no one's talking to me on here anymore, unless I go into the chatroom.
It's gonna be a rough journey till I start to become happier with being me, but it's something I really need to do. It's just pretty hard atm.
So yeah, tears are coming on... I'm gonna go.
=/
xxxxxx
Posted on May 29th, 2008 at 12:18am
morgan. stop it! just stop it! ur amazingly beautiful, and it intimidates people. thats y every1 likes your frnds and not you. ur to goregous for guys to understand that. girls handle that stuff much better. i love you a whole lot.
xxx
erin
erin leigh bby, June 6th, 2008 at 12:36:02am
You can Talk me.
My friends call me the Actual School Listeneer.
I was bulimic at the age of 10.
I think i know what's happening in your noggin.
Eyeliner Queen, May 29th, 2008 at 12:37:09am
=) Well I hope you do.
Frank!enstein, May 29th, 2008 at 12:36:03am
Well, I can't honestly say I think I'm pretty. But I don't think I'm ugly and that's a start. Read my other journal "Stop hating how you look", that describes the situation and why I'm trying to stop this more clearly.
Thanks for the offer, I might just do that (:
xxxx
Vampire_Vogue, May 29th, 2008 at 12:30:08am
Babe, you are probably pretty. Everyone feels insecure about themselves. Even if they claim they don't, they really do.
Just, try seeing yourself in a more positive way. I went through the same thing before. Just a period of time where I thought I was way over weight and wasn't pretty but eventually I pulled out of it, and no, to be honest, it wasn't easy. Just like the title of this journal, "No one said it would be easy...."
If you want to talk, message me. I love to talk to people. That sucks that you can't go into the chat room.
Much love.
Lauren
Frank!enstein, May 29th, 2008 at 12:25:59am