Better Now?

Well, school has started now, so it's interfering with my writing, and I don't like it.
My schedule:
1.Civics
2.Algebra 2
3.Honors American Lit
4.Electrical/Electronic Systems and Design (auto machanics)
5.Biology
6.French 1

I'm not really sure what I'm going to write in this journal, but I'll guess I'll just talk about what's bothering me.

Well in March, I got my first boyfriend, who was also my best friend, well he broke up with me 2 weeks and 1 day into it, and it took me forever to get over it, since it DESTROYED our friendship. Well over the summer I thought I was over it, but now I'm back in school, and he's in my 4th period. Well I've been in school 2 days and he has given me a hug both days, and it hurts me when he does, but I would never tell him to stop. It feels like everytime he touched me or looks at me, it's tearing at those old scars, and I wish that it didn't. He got another girlfriend right away after me, but I don't have a boyfriend, even though I could right now if I wanted one, and now I'm listening to "Better Now" by Rascal Flatts, and it reminds me SOOOO much of the situation. I mean, the guy broke up with me through TEXT, and he said it was because he didn't want to ruin our friendship, but I know that can't be it, cuz it got ruined anyway, I want a good reason, because I wanted it to work out, and now I try to stay away from him, but having a class together doesn't help matters, ugh, I'm in soooo much pain now,again. If you haven't heard the song, you need to go listen.
Copy and Paste: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_BqVfAYBq4&feature=related
Ugh, someone help me...