grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

god I'm such a twat, and a stupid idiot. I mean I'm turning people suicidal.

I haven't said anythin nasty (I hope), and all I've done was expressed my 'love' towards them. good love by the way.

and now I feel bad because I like him in many ways, but he is taken which is a gud thing because I am a horrible person to b with. and now because I do this (Beat myself up about it) he goes and hurts himself, which is driving me insane cause I do NOT want ANYONE TO GET HURT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


really just needed to get this off my chest. woo I feel better now. I hope things will just go back to the happy, funny meaningful conversations and that he does not get mad at me. cause that is what I'm really scared of doing and that he will ignore me. now then I wud feel more like a twat to what I still am.


sorry to dappen ur spirts. Im a twat so that is what im gud at.