Feliz Cumpleaños Sakura.

Today is my birthday. I'm fifteen years-old today, specifically at 6:35 in the evening.

I've had a good birthday so far. I don't have too much homework. I did some of it already, but I'll probs do it soonish. I made a few new friends. I met Chad, this really nice gay kid my age. I met Dana, who's sort of quiet, but can be really talkative when you know her. She seemed really nice. I also got to see Kat, Kristi, Kyle, Kelsie, Dani, and Laura today. I mean, I see Kristi every day, but still. It's nice to have hour long conversations with them. I also saw Bri, but she didn't recognize me.

I signed up for the school Literature magazine, called Revelations. I can't wait to have my work published like that. It'll look great when I apply to English schools and stuff (if I do). Plus, it'll be able to spread the hope sooner. Maybe I'll live my dream of giving someone a reason to live soon.

I also met this kid Scott, who runs Lit. Club. He's really nice. He's gonna help me get the audition date for jazz band. And I met this kid Coco (yes, a boy), who reminds me of Peter, my son. He's pretty nice.

I dunno. I feel liberated being with old friends again. It's really nice to actually have people to count on again. To not have to worry about friends dying, and being hurt. Because it almost seems like we're gonna be a family at lit. magazine. I'm really excited for it. :)

And I got a Facebook a while back, and I think I might work on it a bit. I really want to stay in touch with these people.

But the problem is, I have to live this moment up as much as I possibly can, because I turn fifteen today. I know fifteen might not be that old to you, but it really is. I'm not complaining I'm getting closer to dying of old age. I'm not complaining at all. I'm just upset because I know I'm going to die soon. I'm not gonna live too much longer.

I just know it.

And it scares me shitless.

So I'm going to enjoy my life as much as I possibly can right now. This will be the best year of my life, and I will not let anyone bring me down this year. I will meet Mibba people in person. I will go to a doll meeting. I will get better at bass. I will save someone.

I have to, if I can't even save myself.

~Love Always, Sakura