Guilt Trip.

I can never get all my feelings out.
I can't listen to this song anymore because it reminds me of what a pathetic loser I am.

I have a great girl right now... she's perfect for me and I like her so much.
I shouldn't be hurting still!
I shouldn't be talking to the girl that made me hurt.
But she needs me. So I do.
Ugh.

I should fucking hate her.

I can't!

She said
"don't, don't let it go to your head
Boys like you are a dime a dozen,
Boys like you are a dime a dozen"
She said
"you're a touch overrated,
you're a lush and I hate it
but these grass stains on my knees
they won't mean a thing"

*** she let it go to her head. she told me she was falling for me.. then she told me that i was abusive because i was trying to fucking save her. because i let her talk to me and i told her i wanted her to stop doing those things to herself. but what SHE'S done to ME? oh they don't mean a fucking thing.
***

And all I (all I)
Need to know (need to know)
Is that I'm something you'll be missing
(is that I'm something that you're missing)
(maybe I should hate you for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
(maybe I should hate you for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...

** she's going to come crawling back to me. I should hate her for telling, for lying, for leading me on. I could never hate her though. Even though she's a liar and fucking fucked up.
***

I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to, the truth
is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

*** I would lie to her. I wouldn't lead her on. I would apologize for bleeding on her shirt.
***

And all I (all I)
Need to know (need to know)
Is that I'm something you'll be missing
(is that I'm something that you're missing)
(maybe I should hate you for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
(maybe I should hate you for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...

Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name

If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...)
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this)
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...)
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this)
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...)
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this)
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...)
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this)

*** I'm fucking abusive?! Because I try to get you to stop cutting and burning and killing yourself!!!! That's the thanks I get for the sleepless nights, the worrying, my friends getting annoyed with me because I'll drop fucking everything to talk to you. FUCKING LIAR.

MOST PEOPLE WOULD KILL FOR SOMEONE TO CARE ABOUT THEM AS MUCH AS I DO FOR HER.**

Maybe I should hate you for this
(If only you knew half as much as you pretend to)
Maybe I should hate you for this
(If only you knew half as much as you pretend to)

She thinks she knows but she has no idea.