Feeling <3

Recently iv had this feeling...

it feels empty but at the same time i feel like i can do anything

i havent been paying attention in school which has made me fall slightly behind-not good

this feeling distracts me throughout the day and makes me want to get out there, get out and see new things experience new things but with him

earlier today i came to a realisation...this feeling that has been inside of me for the past few months, this feeling that has made me want to break away from my normal and boring life which has no purpose...is love

if its not this then who knows, if i lose this then i fear i may lose everything
i need help.
i need to concentrate and get back
i need to stop being distracted by him and thoughts of him and get on with it

this year is important beacuse of GCSE's and so far im not feeling confident...but i cant do anything about it...i cannot help myself

on the plus side because of this realisation i no longer feel cold,lonely and empty like i used to all the time...

i know this is really cheesy but i feel i cant tell anyone so i thought rather then talkin face to face n sounding like an idiot and being laughed at, id write down how i feel. i feel better that i have done and my worries seem to have decreased slightly...

maybe il give writing a try-i can be deep at times...lol