I Wish _____

i wish i could be sane enough
i wish i could be stable enough
i wish i could be strong enough
i wish i could be serious enough

i wish i couldn't stand you
i wish i couldn't love you
i wish i couldn't hate you
i wish i couldn't miss you

i wish i was what you wanted
i wish i was what you hated
i wish i was what you needed
i wish i was what you missed

i wish i wasn't so stupid
i wish i wasn't so naive
i wish i wasn't so scared
i wish i wasn't so fucked

i wish i would start
i wish i would stop
i wish i would live
i wish i would die

i wish i wouldn't get so attached
i wish i wouldn't get so detached
i wish i wouldn't get so drunk
i wish i wouldn't get so high

i wish you could stop trying
i wish you could stop loving
i wish you could stop caring
i wish you could stop hurting

i wish you couldn't see me
i wish you couldn't hear me
i wish you couldn't love me
i wish you couldn't hate me

i wish you were here
i wish you were gone
i wish you were alive
i wish you were dead

i wish you weren't so nice
i wish you weren't so amazing
i wish you weren't so lovable
i wish you weren't so caring

i wish you would say what you meant
i wish you would know what you wanted
i wish you would stopped what you started
i wish you would fix what you have broken

i wish you wouldn't tell me
i wish you wouldn't know me
i wish you wouldn't stop me
i wish you wouldn't fix me
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What do you wish for?