Pahtetic

Well my life just to hell. I broke up with my girlfriend. I like this guy who now knows i like him. Which was supposed to be a secret. I was stupid about my feelings. Why is it that every time i put my heart out there it's get thrown back in my face only in pieces. I'm so sick of love and emotions. Why does this always happen to me. Why me? I just don't know if i can handle it again. I'm trying to avoid him but i just want to talk to him about it. I want to get this over with. When will i find my happiness. I'm so sick of this. Someone just tell me it's ok. Anyone just help me. Well thats it.