Ballad og Big nothing

Its 1 something in the morning. I can't sleep. I feel like shit. I have no one to talk to. And keep fucking myself over and over. I'm tired of ppl trying to convince me of what i am not. fuck I never knew i was this much of a loner. So bad that I isoslate myself from everyone. and before, I was okay with that but now i feel lonely, angry, and mixed of emotions. And hate that shit. I hate how at this moment, i'm fucking complaining like and emo kid. Fuck... I'm tired of this bull shit how i'm supposelbly brilliant or how smart i am. damn if i was than why is it so hard to show it. IDk. sorry if i have major errors its just i'm ranting and i'm tired and i have other shit in my mind. idk.