Honesty

i want to give it all away
meet a stranger with tired eyes
and problems of their own
be swept away into the night
and fill the part of me i lost years ago

but being constantly void
isnt something ive grown to love

so waking up broken isnt anything new

i want someone to see me
and really truly see me
decide for themselves by my appearance alone that im someone worth
taking time on

i want to meet someone
who only wants one thing
and doesnt make me feel otherwise
someone who takes my hand and holds it and walks with me
down a street in the middle of the afternoon
who wants to be seen with me
for one day and one day only

i want to belong to someone
not to be owned
but to be the only

them
hello

me
well hi

them
would you like to spend the day with me making memories and leave me on the happiest of terms

me
please
and thank you

i dont want you in my life for a long period of time
24 hours with you will fill me for days

i dont want obligations and repurcussions
i just want someone
who just wants me

them
your lovely

me
as are you

them
when you smile i have to make fists with my hands to keep composure

me
when you talk i have to look away or i wont be able to concentrate on your words

i just want
to bypass
the beggining

i want to hear those silly things we think and never say outloud
becasue thats who i am
thats what im made of
and thats what i need
in order to understand

them
i dont like it much when you always say sorry

me
neither do i

them
and i dont like it much when you always touch your hair

me
but its soft

them
thats ridiculous

me
im ridiculous

them
surprisingly
i do like that

if you see me across the room
walk over and hold my gaze
dont say two words
but kiss me
hard
and with meaning
if i pull away
so be it
if i dont
kiss me again

i just want days ful of flirting
and hidden looks
and eskimo kisses

days full of watching the sky
and sokaing up the beauty

i dont want you to think about loving me
i just want you to think about me

24 hours
talking and smoking and having sex
smoking some more and making sandwhiches
kissing as much as we can
and shainrg secrets
making jokes at other peoples expense
and being honest

i dont want you to love me
im realistic
and if you happened to fnd yourself doing so

i really dont know how id react

them
its only been 19 hours and it feels like 19 years

me
ha

them
do you think 25 hours would be asking too much

me
dont fall in love with me

them
i already have

when its real
is fast
and its easy
you have to work
but you want to
if after 24 hours witth me
you dont feel likw working
we had fun right

i wont ever want anything i know you wont give me
plain and simple

honesty
my dear friend

i think i deserve it