life is shit

you know how everybody is like "You have to love your parents" and all that shit
well like hell i do
according to my mom im a useless selfish bitch who should die
lets see if those people who say that crap have even gotten the shit beat out of them by their mom
lets see how they fell about them after that
but the sucky part is that no one will believe me if i tell them
last time i ran away my mom locked all the doors and windows so i couldnt get back in
then she called the cops and all my friends threatening to hve them arrested if they picked me up
so i had to run 2.5 miles barefoot with a sprained ankle in a tank top and camo pants
let me tell ya it was cold as hell
my freaking bf wouldnt come pick me up cause he was scared of my mother
evrybody thinks tht my mom is so perfect and would never pull shit like that
thats why nobody believes me
and now my grandmother is saying tht my uncle has been giving me vodka
which is false
ive been stealing it from him
thats the only way i can deal with this shit going on
the boos and pills
my lil cousins r in a horrible home
they dont get fed the proper food and they dont get taken care of
they are my babies
i luv them and they call me mommy when nobodies around
ive got pratically no emotions from all the shit and it sucks
i hate not being able to cry or laugh
im just like a stone statue
and it sucks
and yes now im sounding like a whiny little emo bitch
which im starting to believe is true

-sahara nakara