Letters To The Dead

taiki. i miss you. and now im missing someone else to
my heart hurts so terribly bad.
i miss him so much,
and i know hes up there in heaven with you.
but i dont want to be alone down here.
it hurts to be down here.
i know you are in a better place.
with jaden and jamie.
but i dont want to be alone,
i want to be with you. taiki,
please, let me be there with you
i want your hugs and kisses.
i want jaden to comfort me
and tell me im not gonna be alone.
i want jamie again.
i dont remember what he looks like
why did you guys have to leave?
it wasnt fair. you where taken
i sound so fucking selfish,
but its the truth.
you should still be here taiki.
so should jaden.
so should jamie
jaden and you and jamie
should be alive and well
and laughing and crying
about how we all where
mistaken that you died.
please come back taiki.
please jaden, come back to
please bring jamie back to
come cuddle with me
and hold me and
tell me everything is okay
i want to see your lip piercing one last time
i want to tell you i love you and always have
and give you that letter i wrote but didnt give you
i want you to read it
taiki, i want you so much. i tried to move on
like everyone said it was best.
its not the same without you
he didnt care like you did.
he didnt want to help me
he said i had to many problems
im so sorry, i do. have way to many problems
im hurting all over in every place
and i just want to be there
i hate it here. i hate how i am missing
the three people in my life
i need most.
im so sorry taiki
i couldnt stop those boys
i couldnt save you
i wasnt there for you
like you where me
jamie, im sorry i left
i left to go sell myself
im so fucking sorry, i left
you wouldnt have died
jaden im sorry
i refused to believe
everything you said
im sorry i didnt agree
im sorry i wasnt there
for you im so fucking
sorry.