Everday Life

I hate how everyday is the same for me. I'm not even sure that anyone can quite grasp how monotonous and tedious it is starting to get. Everyday I go to school, and do the same old thing. Nothing new happens and there's the same old stupid drama over nothing. I don't even think anyone understands how much drama annoys me either. Not even drama in my own friend group, just stuff around me/what people tell me. It's so ridiculous and I'm not sure I can stand it much longer.

Anyhow, I hate how I can have whole conversations with people without paying attention in the slightest. That kind of scares me because I have no idea what I'm saying, I just respond, like I subconsciously know what the conversation's about, but I'm not sure that I do. Have the time people talk to me, asking a question and just by their tone of voice I know whether to say yes or no. That's terrible!

I hate how questions asked everyday lose their meaning. Like "how are you?" that doesn't really mean how are you, it's just small talk. Whenever someone asks me that, I never-not EVER-stop to think, "oh, how am i doing?" It's always automatically good. It's not like I'm going to say Bad because then people would be like "oh, what's the matter?" and I'm not just going to delve into my personal problems. I'm not sure there's such a thing as being "good" anymore.

Anyways, this gave me another idea for a journal, and since i think i may write a lot, i shall start another.