just wanting to cry

i have been going threw alot right now life isnt going so well for me well the love part of life i just want to find one boy just one who wont use me or promise me they will stay forever or say they love me when they dont mean it god y do u do this to me why cant u let me find one boy just one who would die for me who would love me and hug me why cant u help me i beg u please to stop putting me threw this pain it kills me i hurt the more and more i get hurt i really like the boys i date but they just use me im a good girl i dont do anything wrong im loving and everything please god stop the pain i cant take the pain any more please make the pain go away