i want to rest

I'm so tired. tired of everything. my life, my love, i ain't got job. seems like everything is so gray.. so unclear that how i wish i can use the wiper to clean up the mirror of future. been 2 months now that i don't have job in Qatar. i had walked all through doha just to give my CV's to all company ive seen. i am experiencing a very tough situation now. my boyfriend just left and we found out that he will be assigned to another project somewhere but not here. i had enough of crying. my mind is totally messed up. i have eye bags now :-). cant sleep well.
i still have to support my family in my homeland. but how? Oh God!!! help me. i cant carry all this stuff anymore. its too much burden that i wanted to fall down and just rest. its too heavy. cant take it anymore.

God if you can hear me, please just let me rest for a while ... only for a while